outloud isnt working so lets try some internet yelling
FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ARG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Im so on edge at the moment, i screamed and scared away jango and the cats
I felt ill and docile this morning and now i feel panicky and angry. it doesnt help that our neighbour seems to have half the population of the town parked in our drive way.just incase you havent read my previous blogs i hate my neighbour as i have seen her punch and drag her dog aroundand woopi for the world it would seem she just had a baby, another poor punching bag for that evil wench.
now i want to break my phone, myself, mirrorsi have just taken some tablets to try and calm down, but they arent kicking in. I hate thisi feel fucking evil.if i beleived in religion im sure this is what id put down to devil possession im not even close to myself. I actually hate who I am, another reason i cant bring myself to be around peoplei manage to calm myself around lucy and my mum and dad, but even the thought of anyone else just agitates me. I just want to be myself again.
watched some bullshit on tv about kids who commit suicide coz they read about it on the internet.people arguing that they should be allowed tofucking bullshit if someone wants to kill themselvesthey should be sectioned immediately and put in a room with many people so they can get the attention they so dearly crave. Now I know the state depression can put you in, I truly know that suicide is not a thought for making things betterits selfish, inconsiderate and cruel. people say its a scream for helpi got to a psychiatrist to scream for help and he gives me tablets and they helpi dont need to put my closest through the hell of committing suicide to make a point that is wasted by death!
yes i am angry and yes i have probably contradicted myself, but im just fucked off and needed to vent to distract myself before I upset my cute pets anymore
FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ARG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Im so on edge at the moment, i screamed and scared away jango and the cats
I felt ill and docile this morning and now i feel panicky and angry. it doesnt help that our neighbour seems to have half the population of the town parked in our drive way.just incase you havent read my previous blogs i hate my neighbour as i have seen her punch and drag her dog aroundand woopi for the world it would seem she just had a baby, another poor punching bag for that evil wench.
now i want to break my phone, myself, mirrorsi have just taken some tablets to try and calm down, but they arent kicking in. I hate thisi feel fucking evil.if i beleived in religion im sure this is what id put down to devil possession im not even close to myself. I actually hate who I am, another reason i cant bring myself to be around peoplei manage to calm myself around lucy and my mum and dad, but even the thought of anyone else just agitates me. I just want to be myself again.
watched some bullshit on tv about kids who commit suicide coz they read about it on the internet.people arguing that they should be allowed tofucking bullshit if someone wants to kill themselvesthey should be sectioned immediately and put in a room with many people so they can get the attention they so dearly crave. Now I know the state depression can put you in, I truly know that suicide is not a thought for making things betterits selfish, inconsiderate and cruel. people say its a scream for helpi got to a psychiatrist to scream for help and he gives me tablets and they helpi dont need to put my closest through the hell of committing suicide to make a point that is wasted by death!
yes i am angry and yes i have probably contradicted myself, but im just fucked off and needed to vent to distract myself before I upset my cute pets anymore