bellevenin27

i thought about life a lot today. I thought about where i want to be in the future, where i am now, where i SHOULD be. Its kind of depressing really, i guess my problem is, i cant wait to GROW up. I guess i'm ready to experience life to the fullest. Get through school, have a career, travel. Who knows maybe even have a companion, someone i can wake up next to each morning. It would be so happy to live in a town where no one knows me, start from scratch.

And lately, my nurturing instincts have been coming out. I noticed i have been so attentive to children lately. I guess i just have a lot of patience with them. I find them so fascinating i guess. It's so funny to hear what kids have to say, it's so nice to TAKE CARE of someone i guess...i think i may need to get another cat or something, i'm too young for kids! haha, i don't know, It could be i just need to see my younger brother and sister. I don't see them often, but when i do, i just want to spoil them, take them places, just be there for them.

I don't know WHAT my deal is, i'm just overly emotional, and way to fixated on the wrong things right now.

I need to pick up a good hobbie..

take my mind off of all of this

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