bellensebastian

yes, there can be such a thing as friendship. i once had a male friend of mine say to me, "You know, guys are never *just* friends with girls..." of course, i had to ask him why WE had been "friends" for so very long. apparently, he was talking about every other guy except him (bah). i remembered this comment for a long time and it totally coloured how i viewed people. i don't let that happen anymore. a couple of my best friends are the "opposite" sex; i have never screwed around with either of them. give up on the 2 who do want more than just friendship; just be friends dude. you will get so much out of the friendship once you get past the male/female shit. and as for the rest, well, just be honest with them and if they decide to remain your friends, so be it. just..let..life..happen. cuz you know, it will anyway, whether or not you are trying to plot it out.

yeah.. but one of them is my ex.. that ultimate passion.. the love that you know will always mark your soul.. the girl that wanted to have my kids and marry me.. i spent so many months and years thinking about what our kids would look like..

the other.. no problem i think.. she is cool. it is just that i always end up sleeping with them. like this weekend that has gone by.. ended up in bed with a girl i have known for 3 days.. and i thought she was going to be my buddy.. we didn't have sex, but we easily couldve gone down that road. i have no fucking clue what i am doing, and i tend to think with my cock too often i think.. or girls will pull that shit out of their ass. i recently told a friend that we shouldn't have sex, and she shows up in a schoolgirl outfit and tells me she wants to earn an A. what is a guy suppossed to do. my heart melted.

i am totally fucked. i am not that good looking. i think that is where this is coming from. speakign of which.. the door. ugh.