Thursday Mar 09, 2006

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"did you ever see a robin weep when leaves begine to die...thats means hes lost the will to live..im so lonesome I could cry"

Its become so hard having SoPhast gone all night.......

I've been chipper and happy for months now but my lonelyness has gotton to me. I've become a deep shade of blue... I feel so utterly alone in this world of 6 billion people. Its been so long since ive felt that lovely feeling of an energy conection...Someone who you instantly click with and they click with you in return and show an equil intrest in the inner you. I miss my mqt friends. I miss my husband...my other half... its so hard having a section of yourself out there in the world without you.

My job is going well and i enjoy it and i seem to really be making a difference for the better in these peoples lives....but it takes me away from art.

And with out my art and my abbility to excape into my own reality my inner monsters come out and reak havok upon my mind and my soul...and it hurts

*sigh*

ej:
hmmm, I have sympathy for the lonelyness. I know it's hard, I'm ooking at leaving sometime in the next year or so and it becomes hard to deal with.
please touch base when you know you are headed this way.
infinity:
you just gotta manage your time thats all, do the art whenever you can.


i can definately relate with ya though when i dont relax enough during a time of a lot of work i just start losing it and losing sleep and i just get all weird.

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