According to dictionary.com
grief n.
Deep mental anguish, as that arising from bereavement. See Synonyms at regret.
A source of deep mental anguish.
i'm not sure if it's all mental. it certainly doesn't feel like it's all mental. although my brain does feel rather removed and like it's denying something, particularly it's normal function of being somewhat witty and relatively smart. i've been having problems stringing sentences together at times... i forgot how hard it is to lose someone you love. the last time i had to deal with it was in high school when a close friend died of an asthma attack. but i don't remember it being like this. my mind feeling like it's ten sizes larger than it needs to be, yet filled with nothing in particular. my hands not completely coordinated with the rest of my body. nothing feeling quite the same... the urge to cry constantly at the tip of my senses, but still denying it. perhaps i just need to bawl for a few hours. maybe that would clear my head a bit. maybe i need to spend a good long time alone, but it's been so good to have someone here to cry and get it out with. but not wanting to be constantly sitting on the couch in tears...
ukrainian funeral songs have been haunting me since yesterday. went to pottery class, felt good, but couldn't get them out of my head. didn't matter how loud the seether was in the car on the way home. still stuck. wouldn't go away. won't go away. maybe i need to let them escape by the good old cryfest. i'll have to do something. try to get things back to some semblance of normality. i can't work, i can't think, i can't... blah, this fucking sucks.
grief n.
Deep mental anguish, as that arising from bereavement. See Synonyms at regret.
A source of deep mental anguish.
i'm not sure if it's all mental. it certainly doesn't feel like it's all mental. although my brain does feel rather removed and like it's denying something, particularly it's normal function of being somewhat witty and relatively smart. i've been having problems stringing sentences together at times... i forgot how hard it is to lose someone you love. the last time i had to deal with it was in high school when a close friend died of an asthma attack. but i don't remember it being like this. my mind feeling like it's ten sizes larger than it needs to be, yet filled with nothing in particular. my hands not completely coordinated with the rest of my body. nothing feeling quite the same... the urge to cry constantly at the tip of my senses, but still denying it. perhaps i just need to bawl for a few hours. maybe that would clear my head a bit. maybe i need to spend a good long time alone, but it's been so good to have someone here to cry and get it out with. but not wanting to be constantly sitting on the couch in tears...
ukrainian funeral songs have been haunting me since yesterday. went to pottery class, felt good, but couldn't get them out of my head. didn't matter how loud the seether was in the car on the way home. still stuck. wouldn't go away. won't go away. maybe i need to let them escape by the good old cryfest. i'll have to do something. try to get things back to some semblance of normality. i can't work, i can't think, i can't... blah, this fucking sucks.
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And now that I think about it, I sort of remember my friend saying something about them... but I just didn't care cause I was content with just my Bath of Acid... haha. But really... wow... thanks
You are very welcome, as for the comment(s) I've made to you.
[Edited on Nov 21, 2003 11:03AM]