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So I got to meet KoRn again, got to see them for the 5th time, but my first time seeing them in a small venue. That was awesome. But hurt. Alot. just ow................mosh pits are fun........
I'm really confused about the girl i'm with right now. I guess I just don't know if I feel the way to her that she does to me. She feels like she's in love with me and i feel like we're just good friends who say we're dating. Like.........the feelings I should have towards the girl i'm seeing just aren't there. Never thought i'd find myself confused about something like that but........i dunno. I mean maybe it's the fact that she's my little sister's friend (don't worry it's not illegal, my girlfriend is 18) or just the fact that she's not really as mature a woman as i'm looking for, but i just don't feel the way to her that I do to other girls i've been with. The thing is, I promised her that if there was a problem i'd talk to her about it and give us a chance to work on it before calling it quits. I told her in the beginning that if i feel as though we're not gonna work, i'm not willing to jeopardize our friendship by sticking it out with us both knowing it's not working. I don't know, i'm kinda stoned and rambling on about random things. Helpful advice or support would be nice. if not *shrugs* children of bodom, KoRn, and Symphony X will work nicely to help me think.

Listening to: Angels Don't Kill by Children of Bodom