So I went to this family meeting/hiking this weekend. I met my father's cousins, for the first time as far as I remember. It's funny because every time I meet someone new, I cant help from seeing how weirdly broken they are, how crooked. Some are trying to hide their blatant alcoholism, their inability to love their son. Their son is trying to understand authority testing it upon everyone else. Dominant or dominated, nothing in between. Some other are trying to recover from having been fired from their dream job. For years now. Mostly everyone is just struggling to keep on keeping on.
Somehow it makes me feel better because I'm not the only one with problems. But, on the other hand, if everyone is fucked up, there's no hope of being redeemed, whatever that means. Maybe you just have to live along and give up on the bulllshit.
I came back exhausted because I had almost no sleep for the whole week end. Guess who had to (try to) sleep right by the biggest snorer in the world (yeah, at least !) ?
But the good thing is, for the first time in months I've been able to get a good night of sleep yesterday. I'm not more tired than the day before. Yay !
I'm sorry my blogs are so uninteresting and self centered, I'm definitely not a good writer when it comes to telling my life. Let's try not to over-analyse past events and talk about plans :
My band is trying to finish the fucking 4 track Ep, but it just takes painful ages before it comes out, I'll post something as soon as I can. If anyone's interested.
This summer we're going to record demos for an album, hopefully a record company will believe in it as much as we do.
I'll spend a week on the west coast of italy with my family at the end of july, it's gonna be good, because with my family it always is !
I have many other plans, things to work upon if I get fired from my job (which is a "strong possibility" eversince I was employed). I want to write a book. Make a movie with a friend. Play the soundtrack. Make records. Go on tour. Write and illustrate books for children. Get some more sleep.
Hope you're all doing fine in your way,
xoxo
Somehow it makes me feel better because I'm not the only one with problems. But, on the other hand, if everyone is fucked up, there's no hope of being redeemed, whatever that means. Maybe you just have to live along and give up on the bulllshit.
I came back exhausted because I had almost no sleep for the whole week end. Guess who had to (try to) sleep right by the biggest snorer in the world (yeah, at least !) ?
But the good thing is, for the first time in months I've been able to get a good night of sleep yesterday. I'm not more tired than the day before. Yay !
I'm sorry my blogs are so uninteresting and self centered, I'm definitely not a good writer when it comes to telling my life. Let's try not to over-analyse past events and talk about plans :
My band is trying to finish the fucking 4 track Ep, but it just takes painful ages before it comes out, I'll post something as soon as I can. If anyone's interested.
This summer we're going to record demos for an album, hopefully a record company will believe in it as much as we do.
I'll spend a week on the west coast of italy with my family at the end of july, it's gonna be good, because with my family it always is !
I have many other plans, things to work upon if I get fired from my job (which is a "strong possibility" eversince I was employed). I want to write a book. Make a movie with a friend. Play the soundtrack. Make records. Go on tour. Write and illustrate books for children. Get some more sleep.
Hope you're all doing fine in your way,
xoxo