1. I am an adult and can wash and dress myself.
2. I can make a good Bchamel sauce.
3. I can use linux and windows based computer systems.
4. I have moved house enough times to know how to do it effectively.
5. I keep my room and home clean and tidy.
6. I know when it... Read More
I have been writing. Well bits. I have a habit of writing random bits of random stories. One day I'll try and put them together. I promised myself. Anyway this story is pretty autobiographical. Thought it was blog worthy. It's only a piece of the middle bit of it mind.......
I had a Engl Screamer... They cost a GRAND from gak.co.uk now... and i got it for 400 and sold it for 400... wot a mug, shuda kept it...
when we recorded (back in the day), everyone prefered my Engl to the Dual Rec our other guitarist used... but had a delicious orange 4 x 12 to run it thru, which kinda helped haha
I agree you need to buy a hat =p you look rather dashing. how have you been? no point texting me atm...as usual I have lost my phone...this time in my room...somewhere. x
Ever get those feelings like you just made a really big mistake? One of those ones that only time will tell if the choice has led you down a forest path that looks brighter, but only because the trees ahead thin out and drop away into a north faced cliff that pulls you over the edge with it's promise of a glorious eternity of falling... Read More
Well,its a bit weird. Hes been treated pretty badly by girls in the past,most have cheated on him,and he still says now hes never cheated on anyone. Technically he wasn't cheating on me,we didn't make it official til 2 weeks later,but he sent a txt saying if we were going to sleep together, he wanted to be the only one, I don't think I asked for the same back,just assumed that would be the case. His reason for doing it is that his friend Steve (who is a PAIN IN THE ASS and has nearly made us argue before by telling me my bf has slept with better looking girls "probably") said that I was probably sleeping with someone else that night anyway,as I was sort of seeing a girl before. I told him I wouldn't see her but he said his friend made him feel really bad about it,so when this Emre look-a-like jumped on him,in his drunken state he just did it. I'm not sure thats good enough however.....
Hmmm I'm confused. I feel he needs some sort of punishment! The reason I didn't trust him the first time is because he said this girl kissed him and he pushed her away, but Amanda kept saying "im sure I read it said he slept with her" It was her more than my bf that made me question it.
Whats your big mistake anyway?
I can't be bothered to do some long ass wordy novella of a blog post to catch up with the last.....1,2..... fuck me... 4 months.
So I've just done a monster of a photo upload and so will do it 'that' way, rather than this way. I've tried to get the temporal order and metaphorical aesthetic of things right, to properly explain my actions... I... Read More
One day I will learn to be mean and harsh and callous and self serving and not be every lonely strays healer when once again they fail to surprise me, pleasantly. One day I will do this and someone will say: I miss the days when that boy wasn't so cynical. It's sad to... Read More
Are you getting glimpses of snowdrops and crocusses? They is a comming! Poking throught the cold earth and looking very hopeful for us all. Some flicks... Read More
A mutual friend messaged me. Said... 'Have you read her journal lately (it's friends only and I'm not, so no - Ed). I think you should get in touch. If she means what she says and you can't forgive her, which would be totally understandable, it would be... Read More
Right. Last week I had an interview with npower, it was pretty cool. Had to battle through the snow which was an adventure in itself. The job is a resource planning post to help build a new department within the organisation, very high profile... Read More
well when you put it like that, it sounds like you already know what you want. it seems to me that are being pulled in one direction more than the other....so go with your heart.
i know what you mean about loving someone....im exactly the same.
yeah you know the step one song ( called this could be love) is about damien from the omen falling in love
regarding your issue.....its a bit of a difficult one, mainly because of the reason it fell apart. was the only reason cos she was moving away? nothing else? cos its thats the case....then it kinda throws a differnt light on it all.
if she had cheated, been horrible to you, turned into a mega bitch...then i would strongly advise telling her to FO. BUT.....if all that happened was that and unfortunate situation of timeing came inbetween your relationship and made you have to part ways...well.....is she still far away from you? cos surely what bothered her then would bother her now. the distance i mean, if it was the reason she left, surely she will leave again once it gets too hard again.
if she lives closer...it may be worth having a talk to her...find out where she is at mentally. what it is that she really wants, and not just thinks she wants.
i know i made a very hard decision once. before brian the main person in my life was a guy called jay, he was a knob....but hey ho....anyways....he kept leaving me, getting back with me...treated me like a doll, there for when he wanted me....got rid once he had enough.
we broke up....and it seemed final...there had been a bit of time since we spoke...and i was seeing someone else. then i saw him out, and gave me the whole " i love you, i miss you...no body comes close to you, we are made for each other...i cant believe i wasted all this time letting you go and being an arse...im promise i will treat you how you deserve from now on".....thing is...he really meant it. and i believe he really would have tried.....but i knew i had to say now...i knew i had to walk away....it was so heartbrakingly heard to tell him i didnt want to see him again, and walk out....i went home feeling so confused. did i make a mistake? shit! let me go back and tell im ive changed my mind. he was the love of my life....i really didnt think id get over it. i thought i would regreat that night forever.
but now....hes just in the past. hes not the love of my life.....i found someone else who has complletly taken over my heart. much more than jay ever did.
my point is....it is possible to find someone else im sure. someone who more than fills her( the girl in question) boots so to speak.
having said all that....it doesnt sound like the relationahip you had with her was a pretty dire one like mine and jays. so therefore.....there is a chance that perhaps it would work out.
answer this....would you regret it if you didnt give it another go? how much? was the relationship a good one apart from the split?
i realise that im full of clashing advice lol....sorry about that..im trying to work it out in my head but im typing as i go....this is how my decisions are usually made...lol
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