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So I told him yesterday, about Justin's lingering presence in everything. I think he might snap my little neck for it. I'm a horrible gf, I know. I wish I could help it. I feel like I can't. I wish all that Justin and I had would go out the window as a girly obsession and I could just move on and have what's here now. But my brain makes it perfect still, there's nothing wrong and if were to ever try again it would all fall back into the wonderfulness that was b4 I left. It kills me to think about it, to think about what it must have done to Alex, to sit and wonder about all of it all the time. I'm going psycho,I think.

I'm all girly-fied right now. Black tank top, tight jeans, new open toed heels *gasps* And I think my roomies gonna do my hair and makeup b4 we go dancing. Wowness...

I finally heard from Amanda again... *sighs* Oh dear... I just don't know about that thing. I want it so bad and I know it's nothing but trouble waiting. What can I do??

~Pegasus~