gah. the past few days. who'd have thunk it?
i'm losing my mind. i went and talked to a psych. thought i had bpd and just was living undiagnosed. he said no (although i'm not entirely sure the short time we had to talk was anywhere near conclusive) and that i was just severely codependent and that a past abusive relationship left me unstable and insecure.
duh.
so i've got another session with him monday and then the boo and i are going to marriage counseling. ugh. if any of you are married/in a serious relationship that's going through a rocky time, i really really REALLY suggest you buy/read The Five Love Languages. It's a bunch of sappy shit but it hits home and has already changed my mind about shit. i'm just hoping it has the same effect on the hubby. i love him with all of my heart but shit's rough and i'm doing whatever it takes to NOT have to live without him.
because i'd totally become a lesbian.
work's been rough. i SERIOUSLY can't wait to be done with this shit. i just want to own my bar. anyone wanna loan me some dough as a down payment and i'll totally pay them back??
didn't think so
i'm finally getting my chest piece finished at the beginning of oct. i'm psyched. not only that, but my mom's coming down and getting her first tatt and my (soon to be, hopefully) girlfriend is finally coming home and will be getting her first one too. if everything goes well (and being realistic as to the fact that my set prolly won't get accepted) she said she'll be my photographer from now on. seeing as my current photographer's wife comes back from iraq soon and prolly won't be too keen on his past times. his loss
i'm pretty sure white zifendal is the cause of and or solution to all of my problems. i'm just not sure which.
waiting for oct 23rd is going to make me lose my mind. just tell me no already! geeze.
gah. i'm done. g'night kitties.
i'm losing my mind. i went and talked to a psych. thought i had bpd and just was living undiagnosed. he said no (although i'm not entirely sure the short time we had to talk was anywhere near conclusive) and that i was just severely codependent and that a past abusive relationship left me unstable and insecure.
duh.
so i've got another session with him monday and then the boo and i are going to marriage counseling. ugh. if any of you are married/in a serious relationship that's going through a rocky time, i really really REALLY suggest you buy/read The Five Love Languages. It's a bunch of sappy shit but it hits home and has already changed my mind about shit. i'm just hoping it has the same effect on the hubby. i love him with all of my heart but shit's rough and i'm doing whatever it takes to NOT have to live without him.
because i'd totally become a lesbian.
work's been rough. i SERIOUSLY can't wait to be done with this shit. i just want to own my bar. anyone wanna loan me some dough as a down payment and i'll totally pay them back??
didn't think so
i'm finally getting my chest piece finished at the beginning of oct. i'm psyched. not only that, but my mom's coming down and getting her first tatt and my (soon to be, hopefully) girlfriend is finally coming home and will be getting her first one too. if everything goes well (and being realistic as to the fact that my set prolly won't get accepted) she said she'll be my photographer from now on. seeing as my current photographer's wife comes back from iraq soon and prolly won't be too keen on his past times. his loss
i'm pretty sure white zifendal is the cause of and or solution to all of my problems. i'm just not sure which.
waiting for oct 23rd is going to make me lose my mind. just tell me no already! geeze.
gah. i'm done. g'night kitties.