I have gone out every night this week (yea yea I know it has only been 3 days who cares right?) I care! I haven't actually gone out in so long! The barista that I work with during my shift at my job is one of the most amazing people I have ever met and he really makes me feel like I am much more than I view myself as. If this job brings me nothing else it brought me a kick ass friend who I actually admire and feel sooo protected by.
I can't lie, I miss my girlfriend (ex girlfriend I guess) and she traipses across my mind all fucking day and night and I wish with everything that I have that I could fix it but at the same time as I feel all the heartache I strangely feel good. I feel proud. I feel accomplished. I feel like myself. I feel like a world of possibilities is going to open up soon and it is going to be wonderful.
I still hope that she comes back and wants to be by my side as all these amazing changes happen but if she doesn't I will still enjoy it all just the same.
I can't lie, I miss my girlfriend (ex girlfriend I guess) and she traipses across my mind all fucking day and night and I wish with everything that I have that I could fix it but at the same time as I feel all the heartache I strangely feel good. I feel proud. I feel accomplished. I feel like myself. I feel like a world of possibilities is going to open up soon and it is going to be wonderful.
I still hope that she comes back and wants to be by my side as all these amazing changes happen but if she doesn't I will still enjoy it all just the same.