This weekend has been very weird. And it feels so weird to not be working at all...so of course being the SUCKER that I am, since one of my managers have called me thurs, friday, and saturday to ask me to work, I figured I would. I'm going in to hostess tomorrow from 4-8. Easy job. It's so funny because all of my managers start off by saying "I just wanted to call to see how you were feeling...." and then end it with "oh...by the way do you think you could work..." Hah. Whatever...I'll take the money where I can get it.
So I got almost no sleep last night. It was stifling hot in my room and I just couldn't get comfortable. My jaw has really been killing me the past few days, especially when I sleep, because I usually have to sleep on my stomach. So whatever, I slept a few hours here and there...and then was up at 7 AM typing to another pseudo-insomniac online, and then when he crashed, I did but only to be awoken @ 9:30 when Kristen's new bed was delivered.
Whatever. So I slept til Kerry wouldnt stop badgering me with txts, and drove to Philly. We laid out by the pool and sweltered in the sun...but the pool was nice. I miss my pool. I love to swim so much. Anyway, after fun in the sun was over, we went to Houlihan's and had delicious chicken nachos, and bbq salmon salad..which came with the biggest piece of salmon on it ever, and had delicious mandarin oranges and pecans.
man I'm so happy I can sort of eat again. Haha.
I also got to drink the biggest Long Island Iced Tea ever.
it's dark. but you can fully appreciate the liter of yumminess that ensued. our waitress was the SLOWEST person in the universe, and I really think we were her ONLY table for about a half hour so our food took forever to come out...so I downed about half of that and was feeling pretty happy when the food came out. And even happier because Ashley was on her way up to join in the festivities. I haven't seen Ash in a few weeks, and she's going through a really rough time so I'm really glad she came here tonight to try to get her mind off of things...and I'm pretty sure it worked..hehe.
Uhm.
Last night I was kind of not happy. I think I was just so exhausted and would have been happily content to just sit in front of my computer on my underwear typing away all night, or playing turbo solitaire.
But whatever. I went to applebee's with Kris and Megan, and it kind of put me in a bad mood because most of the night was spent catching up on the past few months, which mostly revolved on Kris and Megan getting back with their boyfriends and how happy they are now, and me talking about all of the bullshit that I've been going through with Justin, which I hate talking about.
I don't know. It just reminded me of feeling really sad, and really lonely...which I've been feeling both of alot lately. I've been trying so hard to keep myself busy with whatever...working, going down to the city, going to the beach, cleaning, going to the gym, whatever. But it's so hard to come home after working what felt like the longest, most frustrating 12 hours of your life...to an empty house. To darkness, and the cat. I'm the fucking cat lady already! Damn!
Heh.
I really want school to start, as weird as that sounds. I want to get back into the groove of things I really like my schedule this year, and I'm excited about going back to the shelter. I can't believe that I didn't go there all summer! I need to call soon, and see if they still want to hire me PT. I probably fucked that one up real bad. I don't know, at least I'll still be volunteering there...Maybe they'll offer me a job for Spring semester, because technically I'm not supposed to get paid when I'm doing an internship. So I wouldn't really have been able to take the job in the first place. Anyway... I went off on a tangent. I kind of want to put everything that I've got into school this semester, and really make it a priority to get good grades. I let myself slip last year, because of so many reasons. Too many distractions. Too much drama. Too much fucking madness all the time. I'm hoping that with only the three of us there, that the drama will at least subside. I doubt the madness will though, but that's okay.
I just need to make sure I get my shit together. I think it was a really good idea to not buy a new desk when my old one broke, so now it's not possible for me to sit down and do homework in front of the computer. That's what killed me. I read more in IM than I did in my book. The classes I'm taking next semester are easy as shit too. No more nueroscience for me.
Babble Babble Babble.
Here's some more pointless babble.
I'm entertaining the idea of getting my nose pierced. I've asked a few key members in my life their thoughts, and they've given me their enthusiasm on it, so I think I will in the next few weeks or so. One more piercing, and I get the 5th free!!
insert one more random picture of me :
Look, I'm kind of smiling in that picture...but I'm sure my eyes are sad -- that's why they're hiding behind my huge shades. You'll never see what I see.
So I got almost no sleep last night. It was stifling hot in my room and I just couldn't get comfortable. My jaw has really been killing me the past few days, especially when I sleep, because I usually have to sleep on my stomach. So whatever, I slept a few hours here and there...and then was up at 7 AM typing to another pseudo-insomniac online, and then when he crashed, I did but only to be awoken @ 9:30 when Kristen's new bed was delivered.
Whatever. So I slept til Kerry wouldnt stop badgering me with txts, and drove to Philly. We laid out by the pool and sweltered in the sun...but the pool was nice. I miss my pool. I love to swim so much. Anyway, after fun in the sun was over, we went to Houlihan's and had delicious chicken nachos, and bbq salmon salad..which came with the biggest piece of salmon on it ever, and had delicious mandarin oranges and pecans.
man I'm so happy I can sort of eat again. Haha.
I also got to drink the biggest Long Island Iced Tea ever.
it's dark. but you can fully appreciate the liter of yumminess that ensued. our waitress was the SLOWEST person in the universe, and I really think we were her ONLY table for about a half hour so our food took forever to come out...so I downed about half of that and was feeling pretty happy when the food came out. And even happier because Ashley was on her way up to join in the festivities.
I haven't seen Ash in a few weeks, and she's going through a really rough time so I'm really glad she came here tonight to try to get her mind off of things...and I'm pretty sure it worked..hehe.
Uhm.
Last night I was kind of not happy. I think I was just so exhausted and would have been happily content to just sit in front of my computer on my underwear typing away all night, or playing turbo solitaire.
But whatever. I went to applebee's with Kris and Megan, and it kind of put me in a bad mood because most of the night was spent catching up on the past few months, which mostly revolved on Kris and Megan getting back with their boyfriends and how happy they are now, and me talking about all of the bullshit that I've been going through with Justin, which I hate talking about.
I don't know. It just reminded me of feeling really sad, and really lonely...which I've been feeling both of alot lately. I've been trying so hard to keep myself busy with whatever...working, going down to the city, going to the beach, cleaning, going to the gym, whatever. But it's so hard to come home after working what felt like the longest, most frustrating 12 hours of your life...to an empty house. To darkness, and the cat. I'm the fucking cat lady already! Damn!
Heh.
I really want school to start, as weird as that sounds. I want to get back into the groove of things I really like my schedule this year, and I'm excited about going back to the shelter. I can't believe that I didn't go there all summer! I need to call soon, and see if they still want to hire me PT. I probably fucked that one up real bad. I don't know, at least I'll still be volunteering there...Maybe they'll offer me a job for Spring semester, because technically I'm not supposed to get paid when I'm doing an internship. So I wouldn't really have been able to take the job in the first place. Anyway... I went off on a tangent. I kind of want to put everything that I've got into school this semester, and really make it a priority to get good grades. I let myself slip last year, because of so many reasons. Too many distractions. Too much drama. Too much fucking madness all the time. I'm hoping that with only the three of us there, that the drama will at least subside. I doubt the madness will though, but that's okay.
I just need to make sure I get my shit together. I think it was a really good idea to not buy a new desk when my old one broke, so now it's not possible for me to sit down and do homework in front of the computer. That's what killed me. I read more in IM than I did in my book. The classes I'm taking next semester are easy as shit too. No more nueroscience for me.
Babble Babble Babble.
Here's some more pointless babble.
I'm entertaining the idea of getting my nose pierced. I've asked a few key members in my life their thoughts, and they've given me their enthusiasm on it, so I think I will in the next few weeks or so. One more piercing, and I get the 5th free!!
insert one more random picture of me :
Look, I'm kind of smiling in that picture...but I'm sure my eyes are sad -- that's why they're hiding behind my huge shades. You'll never see what I see.
Let me tell you about Houlihans...
I was a Freshman in high school playing on the varsity hockey team. My friends pretty much just consisted of upperclassmen hockey players and their girlfriends. They took to me pretty quick, especially one of my defenseman John and his girl, Gina.
Every Christmas the team plays at this big holiday tournament in West Chester. John and Gina drove me out there, we played our game and drove back home, but stopped at the Houlihans in Abington.
Being the growing boy that I was (am) I ordered quite a bit of food. First I had the calamari...then I had mozz sticks...then I had my crazy chickeny main course...then I had a burger because I was still hungry...then I had a fudge brownie desserty thing. Washed it all down with five or six girly non alcoholic drinks.
I thought the waiter was going to throw up.
"That's the most food I've ever seen anyone eat."
I like to eat.
The End.
That's a great pic btw...
Now the end.