so let's be positive here people.
since i've been driving my ass all over new jersey the past few days, i've had some quiet alone time to reflect.
everytime the new year comes around, i think to myself "what is different now than compared to a year ago?" and i couldnt think of anything.
but today in the car i realized that as cliche as it does sound, time does in fact heal all wounds. sure it takes a long time, but things that you thought would be impossible to get over, say, a few years ago, are only meager memories now. things that you spent hours upon hours agonizing over and crying about don't even make you blink now. i'm glad that with every year that passes, i've become a stronger and smarter person. sure, i still fuck up. i still make mistakes, and i always will. that's life. trial&error. and yeah it sucks, but once again, that's life.
as i get older, i also realize that life is too fucking short. too short for all of the bullshit that people get their lives wrapped up in. i've decided that in order to make my life a little easier that this year is going to be all about simplifying everything. every problem has a solution. and even tho the solution may not be right at hand, it will eventually come to me, and things will sort themselves out. i need to stop looking for the miracle of life. i need to stop getting caught up, and losing self-control. i need to focus on myself, and my well being. because i have not been doing that -- and it's taking its toll.
last nite was a really fun nite. kerry and i went out dancing, and i sweated all of the impurities out of my body. we were up til 4, and i only got 4 hours of sleep, but i feel so good right now. it felt so good to dance, and feel sexy, and let loose. it felt good to go out with my best friend, come home, smoke a bowl, eat, and fall asleep perfectly happy. i need more nites like that.
i'm working all weekend, and i hope i make some money. i made 24$ on wed, and that SUCKS. justin's coming up tonite, and i couldnt be happier. i'm sick of being alone in this house. this house is not made to live in alone. ashley is finally moving back in on monday, and i miss her so much! i've gotten so much accomplished in the past 3 hours and it's only noon. imagine that. wake up early, and get shit done. who would've thunk it?
have a good weekend everyone.
xox.
since i've been driving my ass all over new jersey the past few days, i've had some quiet alone time to reflect.
everytime the new year comes around, i think to myself "what is different now than compared to a year ago?" and i couldnt think of anything.
but today in the car i realized that as cliche as it does sound, time does in fact heal all wounds. sure it takes a long time, but things that you thought would be impossible to get over, say, a few years ago, are only meager memories now. things that you spent hours upon hours agonizing over and crying about don't even make you blink now. i'm glad that with every year that passes, i've become a stronger and smarter person. sure, i still fuck up. i still make mistakes, and i always will. that's life. trial&error. and yeah it sucks, but once again, that's life.
as i get older, i also realize that life is too fucking short. too short for all of the bullshit that people get their lives wrapped up in. i've decided that in order to make my life a little easier that this year is going to be all about simplifying everything. every problem has a solution. and even tho the solution may not be right at hand, it will eventually come to me, and things will sort themselves out. i need to stop looking for the miracle of life. i need to stop getting caught up, and losing self-control. i need to focus on myself, and my well being. because i have not been doing that -- and it's taking its toll.
last nite was a really fun nite. kerry and i went out dancing, and i sweated all of the impurities out of my body. we were up til 4, and i only got 4 hours of sleep, but i feel so good right now. it felt so good to dance, and feel sexy, and let loose. it felt good to go out with my best friend, come home, smoke a bowl, eat, and fall asleep perfectly happy. i need more nites like that.
i'm working all weekend, and i hope i make some money. i made 24$ on wed, and that SUCKS. justin's coming up tonite, and i couldnt be happier. i'm sick of being alone in this house. this house is not made to live in alone. ashley is finally moving back in on monday, and i miss her so much! i've gotten so much accomplished in the past 3 hours and it's only noon. imagine that. wake up early, and get shit done. who would've thunk it?
have a good weekend everyone.
xox.
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Time doesn't heal everything, it can give you perspective but make sure you aren't mixing up healing and burying. If you want to heal something then you have to deal with it no matter how bad it gets. You can bury it and forget it but shit has a way of coming back to haunt you.
You weren't in New Hope today by any chance?