I would give anything right now for some peace of mind, some clarity. A warm smile, and someone to tell me that this too shall pass. Today was a struggle. A struggle to get out of bed, to eat, to shower, to move, to feel. I think I just need sleep...it'll help, I haven't been getting much over the past few days. I wonder if it was possible to go back weeks, months, years...if I could have done something differently so that I wouldn't be finding myself in this same position again? Dug myself into a hole so deep, I can't even see the light above anymore. I wish that I had made better decisions. I wish I wasn't always wishing that.



It's so hot, I might just sleep out on the porch tonight. At least the breeze is cool.

PS. Anyone watch True Blood?? Tonight's episode was out of control. JM -- don't worry, we have it DVR'd still.






I heart Spoon.









xox.