beautifulxalone

In the days of kings and queens, I was a jester...

I'm trying to find a balance, I'm trying to build a balance...



I'm not really too sure why I'm awake right now...

I passed out so well earlier too. Too much to smoke tonight, too much on my mind [as usual].

I'm going to start looking for another job to work at during christmas break...I'm hoping to save about 2000$ this break so I don't have to keep stressing about money. I'll be stressing over everything else in my life next semester, so I don't need to add that too.

Friday would have been three years for Justin&I. I kept busy all weekend, so I was relatively okay with the passing anniversary...except for some drunken txts that were reciprocated in ways that I didn't expect...I haven't given up complete hope that we'll ever be together again, and I know he hasn't either...but that doesn't mean I'm going to wait around, I'm attempting to get on with my life here...

I haven't been a very good best friend, and that makes me sad. I can't wait for thanksgiving weekend, so I can share some wine and catch up on old times...

I'm doing an independent study with one of my favorite psych professors next semester...I'm really excited about it.

I'm caught up in infatuation again. I'm trying to ignore it. It's not working very well.

I want to go to a show.

Our cat has mental problems. Everyday she knocks over her food and water bowls for no reason. Crazy cat.


Okay, I have work in 5 hours. I need some shut-eye.


Holler.