"Hi, you've reached Bean. I may or may not be available right now, because I'm insanely stressed out and mildly fearful of any form of communication, but if you leave a message, I'll get back to you when I'm not afraid of the world anymore. Thanks."
Okay, that's really more what my message should have read for the past week, but one isn't likely to be updating one's journal when one is, as the message says, fearful of any form of communication. And yes, I do mean "fearful," in the sense that I turned off the ringer on my phone because it was as jarring to me as my morning alarm (though the vibration mode soon made me cringe just as badly), I've been avoiding even opening my email (or even glancing at the mail on the floor by my front door for that matter), and I've not been on SG for the most part aside from working.
This is, as implied in the message above, due to an overwhelming amount of stress that has built up between a number of things going on in my life right now, none of which I really want to talk about in this forum, but all of which should hopefully be resolved soon (and none of which are any cause for anyone to worry, so don't
), which is the only reason I'm able to write this at all. I'm still a bit wary of communication, so if I don't answer your phone call or respond to your IM or reply to your e-mail, don't take it personally.
I'd type more, but there's a dog laying across my arms and a beautiful girl waiting for me to come tell her goodnight (like I said, things aren't bad, just stressful).
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bean!
Okay, that's really more what my message should have read for the past week, but one isn't likely to be updating one's journal when one is, as the message says, fearful of any form of communication. And yes, I do mean "fearful," in the sense that I turned off the ringer on my phone because it was as jarring to me as my morning alarm (though the vibration mode soon made me cringe just as badly), I've been avoiding even opening my email (or even glancing at the mail on the floor by my front door for that matter), and I've not been on SG for the most part aside from working.
This is, as implied in the message above, due to an overwhelming amount of stress that has built up between a number of things going on in my life right now, none of which I really want to talk about in this forum, but all of which should hopefully be resolved soon (and none of which are any cause for anyone to worry, so don't
![wink](https://dz3ixmv6nok8z.cloudfront.net/static/img/emoticons/wink.6a5555b139e7.gif)
I'd type more, but there's a dog laying across my arms and a beautiful girl waiting for me to come tell her goodnight (like I said, things aren't bad, just stressful).
![kiss](https://dz3ixmv6nok8z.cloudfront.net/static/img/emoticons/kiss.fdbea70b77bb.gif)
![EL SUICIDO LOCO](https://dz3ixmv6nok8z.cloudfront.net/static/img/emoticons/lucha.214fe93ffdb9.gif)
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d23:
6.6.6 party at the same house as the naughty tupperware party this tues... should be ludicrous if you guys care to make it down to the OC
melladoree:
BUT- but I don't know if I want to PLAY!
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