I tell her that I am following her lead from now on in our relationship.  Do  what you want to do is the response and I am shocked at how much it hurts and how much it cuts me.  I don't know how much longer I can carry the load for both of us.  It is hard enough to do what I think I am supposed to do.   
 
    
   
 
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  definitely never a fun position to be in...