I came to a realization today that I have to just do this and get through it. Putting it off only stresses me out more and allows me to hear that ol bottle talking. I made a choice to make something of myself and now it is time to do it. I can't keep half ass doing things and expect them to work, track record be damned. I guess I can start growing up now and stop fucking being 14 years old for the 85th year.
