bcoskin

I guess my last post was just too long or too emotional for anyone to read or respond to. I did things my own way. I'm tired of talking about what I did over the week. I brought it up, and it came crashing down on me. I had no advice to speak of, not from a single person in the world. I begged and pleaded with every single person I knew and got no help. I'm really re-thinking my entire life now. So much has changed that I'm not even going to attempt to put it into words. I've lost a lot of trust in people... and I've lost a piece of my heart. I won't kill myself... suicide is for pussies. I may not be Mr. Tough Guy but I'm going to live with this scar on my heart for the rest of my life. I know it's just me now. I'm the only one that I can trust when times are hard. I feel sick and I am going to sleep.