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Sarah is doing better. I talked to her on the phone for about an hour today, the first time after countless e-mails and IMs. Tried to stay off topic but we went there a few times, I just want her to feel comfortable talking to me without any pressure. I know that a lot of her friends are much more superficial than I am and they usually tried to steer clear of Bobby because he creeped them out, that's so wrong to me. He was sick, mentally sick, but he was still Bobby. You could still tell that aside from his highs and lows or his reality verses real reality.. Bobby's heart was always on his sleeve. He still chuckled when you told a joke, he was human. He still understood that his sickness wasn't normal and that he wasn't normal and that his families life wasn't normal because he was sick. I really think that's why he did it. He knew that he had a gigantic support system of family and friends that would do anything for him. People who loved him and cared for him went out of their way to include him. I just think that when he decided to take his own life he was trying to give his families lives back to them. He didn't want to be a burden anymore, but that's what he considered himself as.. a person trapped in a fogged up mind who saw clearly past the clouds. Who am I to rationalize this? I'm just an outsider trying to make my own theories about something that doesn't even involve me.. but I haven't been able to think about anything else all week.

I'll more than likely make the trip out to Houston sometime this weekend, she misses her dogs and even though they're spoiled as all hell and loved beyond all belief while they're with me.. they miss her too.