batteredink

I woke up today and nearly forgot you weren't laying beside me
My hand traveled down my body only to find it was my fluid (not yours) that made me feel so good
But the thought of you violently between my legs makes me scream the loudest
You make love to my hatred, my love, and my pure imperfections

You rip my sheets
You tear my skin
You rape my pleasure
You puncture my sin

I cry out because you're not here
I die inside because I can't hold you
I hate myself for feeling less without you
I'd kill myself right now just to brush up against you

I'd walk thin ice just to save you from heartbreak
I'd suffer my loudest demons just to make you smile
I'd cut my entire body just to stop the pain you feel
I'd abandon my future just to spend a second in your arms

I feel like I'm dead without your touch
I feel like I'm ugly without your eyes
I feel like I'm worthless without your kiss
I feel pure hate without your love

Crying
Bleeding
Surviving
Crawling

I love you because you make all these things beautiful.