Since I can't sleep because of the a/c going out during the hot nights in Houston, I thought I'd talk about this. I just found an old yearbook and for the younger people, stuff from 2007 seems old now and I opened it up to catch a glimpse of my past/still lingering crush. When I say crush, I'm talking about since Elementary. Ever since 4th grade, I liked this girl and would do anything for her. This slowly went away as we never saw each other much during Junior High and most of High School but Senior year came along and we had English class together. Now, for some reason in all that time between Junior High and High School I became really shy, so despite me wanting to ask her out or just to become friends again, I did nothing about it all Senior year. I had one moment of clarity during college and asked her out but something came up and I was sort of just forgotten after that since she moved for college. I never tried again as she eventually got a boyfriend. I've gone out with other girls, even found one out to be a lesbian that wasn't interested in being more than a friend, that was a funny one but I never feel the same way as the one that I let get away without a fight. There was one girl but she was already in a relationship, was 5 years older than me and ended up being my Step-Sister a few years later. That's a story for a different time. I already know, I have problems in picking a woman. Since I know I didn't do anything, whenever I think about her, I have a small version of a panic attack. Out of all of my regrets, this would have to be the biggest.
I think I'm actually tired now but I'm sure I'll find a way to tell the story of my Step-Sister or just another random entry soon-ish.