I saw a movie that has opened my eyes and mind to somethings that have been nagging me.
My inability to be who I am.
I have no life. I wake up to go to work and service the idiots, dumbfucks, retards, prissy, uneducated, illmannered, cocksuckers, wealthy, assholes, pathetic, sacks of shit, worthless, etc. human beings for over 12 hours a day. And at the end of the day sleep to just wake up and
do it all over again. I get no praise when things are done well. No one notices those. All they see are the wrongs and then they shit on you.
Stress, depression, hatred, lonliness, pain, and suffering are my friends and lovers. They wake me in the middle of the night. They hang out with me during the day. They torment me to sleep.
My heart is a icey, black, stone pumping the fluids that keep me going day to day.
I am no one. I am nothing. I am a speck of dirt that needs to be wiped clean.
I want my life back.
I want myself back.
My inability to be who I am.
I have no life. I wake up to go to work and service the idiots, dumbfucks, retards, prissy, uneducated, illmannered, cocksuckers, wealthy, assholes, pathetic, sacks of shit, worthless, etc. human beings for over 12 hours a day. And at the end of the day sleep to just wake up and
do it all over again. I get no praise when things are done well. No one notices those. All they see are the wrongs and then they shit on you.
Stress, depression, hatred, lonliness, pain, and suffering are my friends and lovers. They wake me in the middle of the night. They hang out with me during the day. They torment me to sleep.
My heart is a icey, black, stone pumping the fluids that keep me going day to day.
I am no one. I am nothing. I am a speck of dirt that needs to be wiped clean.
I want my life back.
I want myself back.