I had a fight last night with a big solid looking chap probably 6ft 5 a good two foot across and built like a barn door.Errrr it was a door one of my yank chums fell over this week and outta drunk sympathy i slipped on my front step and head butted the front door impaling the key that was in the door into my right eye and split it open and it hurt like fuck.
I had to go to my mates party on my own chomps is in rehab when it comes to drinking i,m impresssed she hd the balls to tell me she didn,t want to go in case she fell foul of the demon booze.I think she will turn the corner soon because its been like living with someone you can,t just help enough at the mo,you can see the pain,insecurity,fear and hurt in someone but its hard for that person to wear their heart on their sleeve and tell you everything is doesn,t happen.What i have decided is to give her 100percent support in getting her better and give her time and space god i miss my happy care free best chum and lover sometimes i saw a glimpse driving her to work yesterday like when you first fall in love kind of feeling.I cherised that for the rest of the day.
Back to the party i digress!.
Well my work buddy mick had a party at his flash father in laws place which was stocked well with beer,food and outside a fantastic fire to sit round and keep warm while fireworks flew overhead.The party sucked in a way that brought some home truths about people to me.I am at a age when i am not young but not old and im that age when i probably have kids of maybe 13 years old i kinda felt out of place bigstyle.
For one minute i do not want kids and parties like this make me feel like a outsider so i hid near the fire and drank 8 cans of beer in a hour probably as a release for a torrid week that i have had.Mick also lowered himself in my eyes when he said he faked illness on Thursday,the same Thursday i had to virtually run the place on my own.
I work hard and long hours and that stuck as the overriding memory of that party i kinda wanted to say to him you don,t deserve a job you lazy tosser.
Its not all doom n gloom i bought a jumper that was black when i bought it and changed into a brown one when i got home magic!!!.I have been downloading some good tunes by Tim Armstrong of Rancid and had a trip to the car boot sale which always cheers me up.
I have had a chilled out Sunday but i am missing seeing any fireworks which sucks but i think i will watch them out of my bedroom window.
Hope you all have a happy week wrap up warm and look after yourselves kiddies
LOVE BASH
I had to go to my mates party on my own chomps is in rehab when it comes to drinking i,m impresssed she hd the balls to tell me she didn,t want to go in case she fell foul of the demon booze.I think she will turn the corner soon because its been like living with someone you can,t just help enough at the mo,you can see the pain,insecurity,fear and hurt in someone but its hard for that person to wear their heart on their sleeve and tell you everything is doesn,t happen.What i have decided is to give her 100percent support in getting her better and give her time and space god i miss my happy care free best chum and lover sometimes i saw a glimpse driving her to work yesterday like when you first fall in love kind of feeling.I cherised that for the rest of the day.
Back to the party i digress!.
Well my work buddy mick had a party at his flash father in laws place which was stocked well with beer,food and outside a fantastic fire to sit round and keep warm while fireworks flew overhead.The party sucked in a way that brought some home truths about people to me.I am at a age when i am not young but not old and im that age when i probably have kids of maybe 13 years old i kinda felt out of place bigstyle.
For one minute i do not want kids and parties like this make me feel like a outsider so i hid near the fire and drank 8 cans of beer in a hour probably as a release for a torrid week that i have had.Mick also lowered himself in my eyes when he said he faked illness on Thursday,the same Thursday i had to virtually run the place on my own.
I work hard and long hours and that stuck as the overriding memory of that party i kinda wanted to say to him you don,t deserve a job you lazy tosser.
Its not all doom n gloom i bought a jumper that was black when i bought it and changed into a brown one when i got home magic!!!.I have been downloading some good tunes by Tim Armstrong of Rancid and had a trip to the car boot sale which always cheers me up.
I have had a chilled out Sunday but i am missing seeing any fireworks which sucks but i think i will watch them out of my bedroom window.
Hope you all have a happy week wrap up warm and look after yourselves kiddies
LOVE BASH
hope ur eye heals soon....sounds bloody painful.
im so proud of chrissy with the booze...i hope she can keep it up 2 and i hope u get her fire back soon i think bri probably misses me sometimes cos ive almost lost all of myself lately...
just treasure the moments when u can.
works sounds crappy crap crap...but the magic jumper sounds ace!