dear words fill this space
give the people some part of your head, your thoughts, ideas, feelings
give them something to responde to that makes sense
that gives the correct impression of life, of me.
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AH SHIT
the correct impression - I keep freezing up. Scared of showing myself to people, scared of being hurt. I care Far too much about peoples opinions sumtimes and its stupid. But i REALLY care about this one..
what is this urge to write, i write and write, my writing never gettin any better, but then i am a numerical, logical person
[spoiler]break ups suck. i feel like ive thrown so much away and i dont want to start again. things have deteriated to the fact i cant go to thigns with my mates on occaision. tonigh there having a bbq...
DING DING one friend needed for drinks smoking merryment 2night and cheering up!
sumthg positive though
talking to my ex's best mate lots atm, he said i was hot
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get to know me
- when im smoking i have a thing about ash - therefore i am a contant ash-er, opposed to annoying cunts who let the ash rest on the smoke for ages and then it drops everywhere!
- i
being held, backwards hugs
- I'm horny as hell
i want to be with someone so much. but i want something new too. I know the perfect equation of things i want to get me off. but maybe thats not what i need. maybe i need something new... hehe
welcome to my favourite quote of the moment
I'd be halfway to the bus stop and think 'awwwwww DAMMIT. these are my erection trousers
so yeah, once i start rambling i keep going
ooooooh also totally unrelated to the horniness i have a few new crushes wooooooooo
of course it would be rude to mention whoo 
sum random rambling of last night
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Why dont the pixies and the elves see eye to eye? The caffs, well sheila and Kev are alright on their own, but there all the same people. I like the blue and the green elves. They're all addicts together. Why can't they share smoke, laughter, chat, music, smiles?
Heaven.
Enjoy your tea and fruit toast, my routine when i was at work was a teacake and tea. Boohoo. I miss free food.