So I have been going through this deep emotional time. 
A time that has been filled with moments of rapid epiphanies and realizations. My circuits are extremely overloaded.
Here's the outline of misery...
Crapola Section One:
I lost a friend recently in a fatal car accident. She was only 18.
Shitnastikle Section 2:
I have friends who I love very much in Iraq right now seeing things that I could never begin to imagine. I have had to talk them sane when they call and I have been making home movies and sending them so that they can have a piece of home. I have been trying to think of ways to take them out of the SAVAGE reality that they have been living for a few months now.
Bullshiz Section 3:
I am also battling with some deep rooted feelings about a past lover that has found his way back into my life by some divine will. These feelings that do not seem to go away are lased with issues like abandonment, heartache, and sadness. I am struggling to decide if he should be a part of my life at all, as I do love him terribly, though his presence may not be good for me.
Freakin Edumaction Section 4:
On top of that, I have the massive amounts of busy work from school. Emotionally I am drained and I often see myself looking like a zombie in the mirror.
On the other side of the coin, I have met and have been hanging out with some very interesting people who somehow pull me out of my hidden misery. So thankful I am for them, as I am sure my friends in IRAQ are thankful for me. I wonder sometimes, how I can recharge emotionally so that I may lend further support and radiate with a bright light rather than the one that is flickering so dim.
I want everyone I know and love to know that I love them.
Beyond telling them and showing them through my actions, how else can this be accomplished?
I am open to suggestions of any kind.
If you would be so kind.
A time that has been filled with moments of rapid epiphanies and realizations. My circuits are extremely overloaded.
Here's the outline of misery...
Crapola Section One:
I lost a friend recently in a fatal car accident. She was only 18.
Shitnastikle Section 2:
I have friends who I love very much in Iraq right now seeing things that I could never begin to imagine. I have had to talk them sane when they call and I have been making home movies and sending them so that they can have a piece of home. I have been trying to think of ways to take them out of the SAVAGE reality that they have been living for a few months now.
Bullshiz Section 3:
I am also battling with some deep rooted feelings about a past lover that has found his way back into my life by some divine will. These feelings that do not seem to go away are lased with issues like abandonment, heartache, and sadness. I am struggling to decide if he should be a part of my life at all, as I do love him terribly, though his presence may not be good for me.
Freakin Edumaction Section 4:
On top of that, I have the massive amounts of busy work from school. Emotionally I am drained and I often see myself looking like a zombie in the mirror.
On the other side of the coin, I have met and have been hanging out with some very interesting people who somehow pull me out of my hidden misery. So thankful I am for them, as I am sure my friends in IRAQ are thankful for me. I wonder sometimes, how I can recharge emotionally so that I may lend further support and radiate with a bright light rather than the one that is flickering so dim.
I want everyone I know and love to know that I love them.
Beyond telling them and showing them through my actions, how else can this be accomplished?
I am open to suggestions of any kind.
If you would be so kind.
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lilyk:
460 is purely an exercise in wasting paper products and printer ink. i think paulsen is in league with office depot. i smell conspiracy!
melladoree:
now if only you were here 