bankyedwards

Alright, so here's whats up....

For the past several months I've been "engaged". Lately, I haven't seen nor heard from her all that often. I can't deal with it. I really really care about her, and things are definitely different with her than anyother girl. I could actually see myself getting old with her, whereas previous girls always had this uncertainty to them or I could see the break up from a mile away...

Anyway.... I can't handle it anymore... So I'm going to actively and aggressively make sure that I finally get to talk to her in person for the first time in weeks... so that I can break up with her. It feels really really shitty and awkward knowing that I'm going to do this. This is mainly because while I'm impressing that we need to hang out... I'm not saying anything like "we need to talk" or "I need to tell you something.." It just feels like I'm decieving her.... Why is this so hard?

...I think its because I'm not sure I really want to break up with her. I don't feel like I have any better option either though. This sucks.