Hi there:) so I have just started on SG and although I was unsure of joining at first, I am starting to see why I was so drawn to it for years beforehand. I was contacted through my Instagram page to be photographed by ShaineSuicide and then had the choice whether or not to create an account as a SGH. To be honest I was so tickled by it, and already had so many severe girl crushes on a few SGs. But no matter how excited I was, I had to unfortunately take into consideration my whole future and how my body and my owned sexuality might obstruct my ability to find/keep a job in a field of work I love so much and have worked so hard to obtain. It's nothing new that society has a very narrow view of sex and sexuality, it just straight up sucks that I have to censor myself in order to be seen as still responsible, hard working, etc etc. It really sucks that after years and years of growing up being told that I should love myself and be proud of myself, whether or not I have body type A, B, or C, all the while being taught the notion that naked bodies are disgusting and should be covered, and kept for only the one you love. Now I also went to a Catholic school for many years, but media also plays a huge role in this confusion, i.e. love yourself! But ONLY if you fall within these categories and follow these rules as to HOW you should love yourself and portray yourself. I was somewhat of a prude as a child, very nervous of showing skin, and talking about sexuality, and it took many years of getting to know myself and feeling proud of every lump and bump in order to truly love myself. Now after those years of learning to love myself as well as earning a degree in a field I am passionate about, I come to realize that the two just are not compatible. And that is sad. In my line of work I help people, I help families in dire straights, I help those without a home find appropriate shelter, etc. Would it be right to think that because I find great happiness in showing off what took years to be proud of, that I am unable to properly do my job? I don't think so, but unfortunately that's the way she goes. This was a whole new ballgame for me, realizing that society wanted me to be someone I am not in order to feel capable of doing my job. Heck, if I could be naked all the damn time I would be, I have SO much fun meeting people who share the same feeling! haha People who know that they deserve as much respect as their fully clothed selves would. I'd like to say that this rant is somewhat a part of the " free the nipple" movement, but it's mostly just me saying it's stupid that I have to choose how I wish to be respected. This is me. I am free, and still just as capable.
