banbury

Ok I am started to get stressed out once again. Just when I think that things are starting to smooth out they get bumpy again. My mom is stressing me about finances again. I am trying to curtail my spending. My baby shower is Nov 4 so it is coming up. I keep having Braxton Hicks contractions a couple times a day. Which means I am getting ready to push this child out in the next few months. My biological mother is going to be here for my shower. I havent seen her for god knows how many years. I am keeping worrying that so many of my "friends" arent even going to bother to come. Some of them are very self absorbed and it would surprise me. I went to the Dresden Dolls last night. That wasnt as great a time as i hoped it was. I hung out with friends I hadnt hung out with in quite awhile. But that didnt seem to go very well. I am just the pregnant girl they shove off. They just stuck me in a chair and walked off. I felt like pure garbage. I feel like such a burden to so many people lately. Now I have some girlie I have to fend off my boyfriend. Oh yay! If she shows up again to trivia next Sunday I give him full permission to mess with her head and take the girl down. Well I hope he takes her down. The burlesque show and halloween party are this weekend. I truly hope he doesnt get too drunk and treats me like ass again. I can take flirting as being friendly and social but sometimes theres a line he tends to cross. I really need to start getting on the ball with the moving thing. So much stuff to get together and finally get moving. Hopefully by the end of Nov I will be moved in.