banbury

Why do I torture myself? I knew I shouldnt read blogs. I just end up feeling hurt and beat down sometimes. I mean how can you be with someone who is in love with someone else? Am I just wasting my time and feelings? I just feel like maybe I am just a filler for someone they cant have. Maybe I am just gonna be discarded if they can finally have this person. I have a great time with this person and care for them a lot. But it kinda hurts a bit that he wont tell or hint to anyone we are seeing each other. I feel like maybe hes ashamed to have anyone know. Or maybe just wants to keep that air that he is available. I give him all the freedom in the world. I dont care who he talks to or hangs out with or anything like that. As long as hes faithful to me. Im pretty easygoing and such I think. Pretty low maintenance. All I ask for is some care and affection.