4-25
IM SO FUCKING UTTERLY ECSTATIC I CAN JUST PUKE
Why?
-I think I came up with my Chest Piece!!!
-Talked to my fathers doctor (YES I went behind my dads back.. only because he seems to not tell us WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON) and he said if my father keeps up the therapy and meds.. he will be fine! (Mind you I am still going down there... but not to live)
-I woke up feeling GREAT!!! Woke up next to Eden, went to Wild Oats, did some Pilates, drank coffee and had bacon... what else could I ask for?
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HAVE A GREAT FUCKING WEEK!
4-24
SO.... Here i am at work, sick and bored.
THOUGHTS/COMMENTS/FACTS FOR TODAY:
-Yes, I'm sick. I went on this field trip on Friday with a bunch of ELEMENTARY SCHOOL KIDS!
-So I've been drunk since Wednesday night (when Jess got into town).
Heres how it went:
Matt, Anna, my cousin Neto and I met at this one lounge called Tonic, then met up with Eden and Jessica and went back to the house. Drank Tecate and ate Chips with cream cheese and salsa. Passed out farily early cause i was really tired from work.
On thursday I started drinking at 10am. A little coffee liquor in my morin' cup -a- joe! Took a nap then started drinkin' wine around 2. Meet up with Anna and Jessica went to eat dinner at 6 drank some Wheat Beer. Then Jess and I went to see dillinger4hire at Java Vino took a shot of tequila and had Ty's special "Choco. covered Cherries Martini". Then went to Edens and drank wine,had sex... then went back to our place and drank somemore wine/tecate. My cousin had to carry my little drunk ass into the room.
Friday night after the field trip Jess, Anna and I went to eat...
HAD THE WORST SERVICE EVER!!!!!
Then Jess and I went to Tonic.. then Vinos (An 80's music club) I had fun until some assholes were being fucking pigs with us
...No, and then Jess and I went home to drink some more.. she was already drunk and she gets a call from some guys we met and she invites them over. BAD IDEA. These guys were also fucking pigs. They thought we were hookers or something... they treated us like shit. Well me, cause I wasnt drunk and I wasnt intrested in FUCKING THEM! WTF. I told them i was taken, and yet one still insisted that i wanted his "big fat cock in my throat" YUCK! So it kinda got loud cause you know Celi...
YOU KNOW WHAT? YOU MOTHER FUCKEN' COCKY ASS MOTHER FUCKERS CAN LEAVE NOW! NO I DONT WANT TO SEE YOUR SORRY EXCUSE FOR A PENIS!
Oh and Last nigt... I cooked for my hookers, we watched "Alfie", drank beers, got high. And passed out around 11pm. Ha! So that was my wild and drunk weekend.
-YAY!!!!! 2 1/2 more hours until I go pick up Eden from the airport.
"I miss you my little horn dogger. I am in LA and thinking of you. Wish you were here.....
Eden"
-OMG, I finally heard Edens commercial (the one for his co. that i did the voiceover for)... I sound so funny!!!!!!! I couldnt get over how cheesy my accent sounds.
-I think I want to go into the "meat paking" industry....
he-he-he-he
-These days I have been having the strangest urge to pee in the sinks when we go to bars....
-There has been A Diet Coke that one of the salesmen gave me sitting on my desk for almost 2 months now.
-I really miss my mom. She has been in Mexico for a week now.
-pessimistic=Celi... Im not sure why either. I hate that i fall into these spells of wanting to just sleep. To alienate myself from the rest of the world. Anguish lodged inside my mind. It's like god awful nightmares.
"It is cruel to allow a human being to linger for months in the last stages of agony"
-Ive been shopping on this site:This place has cool shit
-Im kinda hooked on this song:"Me vs Madonna vs Elvis"-Brand New
with one or two I get used to the room
we go slow when we first make our moves
by five or six bring your wheel to the car
number nine with my head on the bar
its sad, but true
out of cash, and I own you
we got desperate desires and unadmirable plans
my tounge will taste the gin and malicious intent
bring you back to the bar get you out of the cold
a sober straight face gets you out of your clothes
and thier scared, that we know
all the crimes they'll commit
who they'll kiss before they get home
I will lie awake
lie for fun and fake the way I hold you
let you fall for every empty word I say
barely concious in the doorway you stand
your eyes are fighting sleep while your mouth makes you demand
you laugh at every word trying hard to be cute
I almost feel sorry for what i'm gonna do
and your hair smells of smoke
who will cast the first stone
you can sin or spend the night all alone
brass buttons on your coat hold the cold
in the shape of a heart that they cut outa stone
you're using all your looks that you've thrown from the start
if you let me have my way i swear ill tear you apart
`cause it's all, you can be, you're a drunk, and you're scared
it's ladies night, all the girls drink for free
I will lie awake
lie for fun and fake the way I hold you
let you fall for every empty word I say
DEDICATIONS
TO ALL THOSE PEOPLE ON MYSPACE THAT COMPLAIN ABOUT MY BACKGROUND:
hehehehe
TO ALL THOSE BOYS AT THE BARS THAT LIKE TO TALK ABOUT HOW MUCH MONEY THEY MAKE AND HOW I WOULD BE SO LUCKY TO EVEN KNOW THEM: I dont care. I could care less what kind of car you drive, how much is in your bank account. WTF! Not ALL girls are gold diggin-marterialistic-money hungry-bitches!
TO ALL THOSE UNDER AGE KIDS AT THE BARS: Mind you yes, I once was one. But C'mon??????? You guys wanna drink? Well make sure you CAN handle it Fuckers! Also... its not cute when you girls are acting like sluts and kissing other girls to make the little boys little schlongs go "Boing"! If you wanna dance like your fucking... GO GET A ROOM, If you want to pretend your really "BI"... make sure you fuckin' wanna kiss the girl like you mean it! And to you little fucking "boys": I could care less if you call me names just because i dont want to be on the dance floor with you groping me and acting like your doing me doggie-style! When I say "NO thankyou"(and I am POLITE about it) You should just say "ok" then run off to your little friends. There is no need for you to stand there arguing with me about how much of a bitch I am. If I am... then I am. I dont need you to remind me.
TO THE CREATORS OF THE NEW CAMPAIGN ADDS FOR LIME-COKE: Great now I have that song in my head again..... "Put the lime-in-the-coke-u-nut"
TO ANNA: I love you sooooooooo much. And you know I am here for you no matter what!!!! Oh and quit leaving your fucking little nylon socks everywhere!!!! I like found 3 where the pots/pans are! WTF?
TO THOSE FRIENDS I DRIFTED AWAY FROM: I am honestly sorry. I love you all, and I hate that I can be a flake. Dont think for once that I didnt appreciate our friendship.... I just have this habbit of alienating myself from people when shits going on in my life. PLEASE FORGIVE ME?
TO THE FUCKING CABLE PEOPLE: Thanks! No foodnetwork? I think I shall commit suicide now!
TO WHICH EVER LITTLE SNOT FULL-GERM INFESTED- LITTLE OUTBREAK MONKEY WHO GOT ME SICK: You little Bugers!!!!!!
TO MY FATHER: Daddy, te queiro pedir perdon por todo lo que ha hecho o no hecho. Te amo tanto y no se como puedo vivir sin ti!!!!!!!!
TO MY SIS: Nena, Will you hurry up and get a freakin' job! I was working at your age. What the hell lazy?
TO SPAIN: Give us back our Fritz... You've had him long enough! Our turn!!!!
TO THE PEOPLE AT STARBUCKS: Oh please please please bring back your Coconut Frapps!!!!!
TO WHOMEVER IS CONTROLLING THE WEATHER (): Will you stop teasing us with nice days! And make it freakin' summer already!!!
TO THE CREATERS OF FAMILY GUY-ALIAS-FOODNETWORK-EBAY-COFFEE-24HOUR GROCERY STORES-ORBIT GUM-COTTON CANDY ICECREAM-THE MUPPETS/SESAME STREET-AND THE GUY WHO CAME UP WITH THIS
: I FREAKING LOVE YOU!!!!!!
TO JASON: I <3 u, and I miss all those days we would spend drinkin' talkin' drinkin' some more and finally eating. Know that you truely are one of my best amigos!!!!!
TO LAS VEGAS: WTF? Why did you get Jessica to fall in love with you? Now she doesnt want to move back. Thanks!
TO THOSE FUCKERS (that I don't even know) THAT MAKE STUPID COMMENTS ABOUT ME, MY TATTOOS, MY PICTURES/PAGE: Fuck off! If Im such a bother in your life... don't waste your time telling me. 'Cause honestly... I dont care!
TO CHRIS FROM DASHBOARD CONFESSIONAL AND/OR MICHAEL VARTAN: Marry me!
TO MY TRUCK: I know I havent been entirely careful with you... but i've been there havent I? I mean we could have went our seperate way long time ago... but no! I still have faith in you. So why? Why do you insist on breakin' down on me all the time? C'mon Girl!!!!!
TO FIELDS: Sorry I missed your B-day! I'll make it up!!!! "WOO HOO WE'RE GOING STREAKIN'!"
TO PATRICK: Why do you live so far far away?????
TO EDDI-FOO: Prima, you know even though we are on opposite sides of the country... that Im here for ya! I love you and miss you soooo sooo soooo much! We will alway have "CORNHOLLIO"
TO MOISES: You by far are the best and my favorite Sushi Chef!!! "Aver quando the traigo otro werro para que lo enchilas!!!!!"
And last but not least
TO YOU, THE ONE THAT HOLDS THE KEY TO MY PANTIES:
"What would you ask of me
It's yours
To touch you with tenderness
to hear the child in you speak
all of the unspoken words
of clouds and sun behind your eyes
Ask me...
For this constant and unending
yearn for your touch
consumes me every waking hour!
Ask me i say...
And expect me to be here for you always
long past our togetherness!"
"the complexities, irrationalities, of the experience...
I am stimulated.
I can't wait until we meet again
we will forever kiss within a second of uninterrupted eternal bliss.
Pleading of skin softly textured
against my skin.
Murmured words, warmth of our bodies....
Unconscious divinity relieving devastated infinity
My empathetic exuberance brings me hopeful bliss.
Within bright light words they speak that you are so special to me"
And as she thought of him she could hear her little heart go *pitter-patter*
her jaw hurts from smiling... she somehow finds herself in this moment of *AWE*!
Yes i know this is a long one, but mind you I sound like an old lady whose been smokin' all her life and has a toad in her throat, so i aint doing much at work.
-Bye-
P.s.
Thanks everyone for your comments. I wish we build a little town and all be neighbors and live happily ever after.
IM SO FUCKING UTTERLY ECSTATIC I CAN JUST PUKE
Why?
-I think I came up with my Chest Piece!!!
-Talked to my fathers doctor (YES I went behind my dads back.. only because he seems to not tell us WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON) and he said if my father keeps up the therapy and meds.. he will be fine! (Mind you I am still going down there... but not to live)
-I woke up feeling GREAT!!! Woke up next to Eden, went to Wild Oats, did some Pilates, drank coffee and had bacon... what else could I ask for?
-
HAVE A GREAT FUCKING WEEK!
4-24
SO.... Here i am at work, sick and bored.
THOUGHTS/COMMENTS/FACTS FOR TODAY:
-Yes, I'm sick. I went on this field trip on Friday with a bunch of ELEMENTARY SCHOOL KIDS!
-So I've been drunk since Wednesday night (when Jess got into town).
Heres how it went:
Matt, Anna, my cousin Neto and I met at this one lounge called Tonic, then met up with Eden and Jessica and went back to the house. Drank Tecate and ate Chips with cream cheese and salsa. Passed out farily early cause i was really tired from work.
On thursday I started drinking at 10am. A little coffee liquor in my morin' cup -a- joe! Took a nap then started drinkin' wine around 2. Meet up with Anna and Jessica went to eat dinner at 6 drank some Wheat Beer. Then Jess and I went to see dillinger4hire at Java Vino took a shot of tequila and had Ty's special "Choco. covered Cherries Martini". Then went to Edens and drank wine,had sex... then went back to our place and drank somemore wine/tecate. My cousin had to carry my little drunk ass into the room.
Friday night after the field trip Jess, Anna and I went to eat...
HAD THE WORST SERVICE EVER!!!!!
Then Jess and I went to Tonic.. then Vinos (An 80's music club) I had fun until some assholes were being fucking pigs with us
...No, and then Jess and I went home to drink some more.. she was already drunk and she gets a call from some guys we met and she invites them over. BAD IDEA. These guys were also fucking pigs. They thought we were hookers or something... they treated us like shit. Well me, cause I wasnt drunk and I wasnt intrested in FUCKING THEM! WTF. I told them i was taken, and yet one still insisted that i wanted his "big fat cock in my throat" YUCK! So it kinda got loud cause you know Celi...
YOU KNOW WHAT? YOU MOTHER FUCKEN' COCKY ASS MOTHER FUCKERS CAN LEAVE NOW! NO I DONT WANT TO SEE YOUR SORRY EXCUSE FOR A PENIS!
Oh and Last nigt... I cooked for my hookers, we watched "Alfie", drank beers, got high. And passed out around 11pm. Ha! So that was my wild and drunk weekend.
-YAY!!!!! 2 1/2 more hours until I go pick up Eden from the airport.
"I miss you my little horn dogger. I am in LA and thinking of you. Wish you were here.....
Eden"
-OMG, I finally heard Edens commercial (the one for his co. that i did the voiceover for)... I sound so funny!!!!!!! I couldnt get over how cheesy my accent sounds.
-I think I want to go into the "meat paking" industry....
he-he-he-he
-These days I have been having the strangest urge to pee in the sinks when we go to bars....
-There has been A Diet Coke that one of the salesmen gave me sitting on my desk for almost 2 months now.
-I really miss my mom. She has been in Mexico for a week now.
-pessimistic=Celi... Im not sure why either. I hate that i fall into these spells of wanting to just sleep. To alienate myself from the rest of the world. Anguish lodged inside my mind. It's like god awful nightmares.
"It is cruel to allow a human being to linger for months in the last stages of agony"
-Ive been shopping on this site:This place has cool shit
-Im kinda hooked on this song:"Me vs Madonna vs Elvis"-Brand New
with one or two I get used to the room
we go slow when we first make our moves
by five or six bring your wheel to the car
number nine with my head on the bar
its sad, but true
out of cash, and I own you
we got desperate desires and unadmirable plans
my tounge will taste the gin and malicious intent
bring you back to the bar get you out of the cold
a sober straight face gets you out of your clothes
and thier scared, that we know
all the crimes they'll commit
who they'll kiss before they get home
I will lie awake
lie for fun and fake the way I hold you
let you fall for every empty word I say
barely concious in the doorway you stand
your eyes are fighting sleep while your mouth makes you demand
you laugh at every word trying hard to be cute
I almost feel sorry for what i'm gonna do
and your hair smells of smoke
who will cast the first stone
you can sin or spend the night all alone
brass buttons on your coat hold the cold
in the shape of a heart that they cut outa stone
you're using all your looks that you've thrown from the start
if you let me have my way i swear ill tear you apart
`cause it's all, you can be, you're a drunk, and you're scared
it's ladies night, all the girls drink for free
I will lie awake
lie for fun and fake the way I hold you
let you fall for every empty word I say
DEDICATIONS
TO ALL THOSE PEOPLE ON MYSPACE THAT COMPLAIN ABOUT MY BACKGROUND:
hehehehe
TO ALL THOSE BOYS AT THE BARS THAT LIKE TO TALK ABOUT HOW MUCH MONEY THEY MAKE AND HOW I WOULD BE SO LUCKY TO EVEN KNOW THEM: I dont care. I could care less what kind of car you drive, how much is in your bank account. WTF! Not ALL girls are gold diggin-marterialistic-money hungry-bitches!
TO ALL THOSE UNDER AGE KIDS AT THE BARS: Mind you yes, I once was one. But C'mon??????? You guys wanna drink? Well make sure you CAN handle it Fuckers! Also... its not cute when you girls are acting like sluts and kissing other girls to make the little boys little schlongs go "Boing"! If you wanna dance like your fucking... GO GET A ROOM, If you want to pretend your really "BI"... make sure you fuckin' wanna kiss the girl like you mean it! And to you little fucking "boys": I could care less if you call me names just because i dont want to be on the dance floor with you groping me and acting like your doing me doggie-style! When I say "NO thankyou"(and I am POLITE about it) You should just say "ok" then run off to your little friends. There is no need for you to stand there arguing with me about how much of a bitch I am. If I am... then I am. I dont need you to remind me.
TO THE CREATORS OF THE NEW CAMPAIGN ADDS FOR LIME-COKE: Great now I have that song in my head again..... "Put the lime-in-the-coke-u-nut"
TO ANNA: I love you sooooooooo much. And you know I am here for you no matter what!!!! Oh and quit leaving your fucking little nylon socks everywhere!!!! I like found 3 where the pots/pans are! WTF?
TO THOSE FRIENDS I DRIFTED AWAY FROM: I am honestly sorry. I love you all, and I hate that I can be a flake. Dont think for once that I didnt appreciate our friendship.... I just have this habbit of alienating myself from people when shits going on in my life. PLEASE FORGIVE ME?
TO THE FUCKING CABLE PEOPLE: Thanks! No foodnetwork? I think I shall commit suicide now!
TO WHICH EVER LITTLE SNOT FULL-GERM INFESTED- LITTLE OUTBREAK MONKEY WHO GOT ME SICK: You little Bugers!!!!!!
TO MY FATHER: Daddy, te queiro pedir perdon por todo lo que ha hecho o no hecho. Te amo tanto y no se como puedo vivir sin ti!!!!!!!!
TO MY SIS: Nena, Will you hurry up and get a freakin' job! I was working at your age. What the hell lazy?
TO SPAIN: Give us back our Fritz... You've had him long enough! Our turn!!!!
TO THE PEOPLE AT STARBUCKS: Oh please please please bring back your Coconut Frapps!!!!!
TO WHOMEVER IS CONTROLLING THE WEATHER (
): Will you stop teasing us with nice days! And make it freakin' summer already!!!
TO THE CREATERS OF FAMILY GUY-ALIAS-FOODNETWORK-EBAY-COFFEE-24HOUR GROCERY STORES-ORBIT GUM-COTTON CANDY ICECREAM-THE MUPPETS/SESAME STREET-AND THE GUY WHO CAME UP WITH THIS
: I FREAKING LOVE YOU!!!!!!
TO JASON: I <3 u, and I miss all those days we would spend drinkin' talkin' drinkin' some more and finally eating. Know that you truely are one of my best amigos!!!!!
TO LAS VEGAS: WTF? Why did you get Jessica to fall in love with you? Now she doesnt want to move back. Thanks!
TO THOSE FUCKERS (that I don't even know) THAT MAKE STUPID COMMENTS ABOUT ME, MY TATTOOS, MY PICTURES/PAGE: Fuck off! If Im such a bother in your life... don't waste your time telling me. 'Cause honestly... I dont care!
TO CHRIS FROM DASHBOARD CONFESSIONAL AND/OR MICHAEL VARTAN: Marry me!
TO MY TRUCK: I know I havent been entirely careful with you... but i've been there havent I? I mean we could have went our seperate way long time ago... but no! I still have faith in you. So why? Why do you insist on breakin' down on me all the time? C'mon Girl!!!!!
TO FIELDS: Sorry I missed your B-day! I'll make it up!!!! "WOO HOO WE'RE GOING STREAKIN'!"
TO PATRICK: Why do you live so far far away?????
TO EDDI-FOO: Prima, you know even though we are on opposite sides of the country... that Im here for ya! I love you and miss you soooo sooo soooo much! We will alway have "CORNHOLLIO"
TO MOISES: You by far are the best and my favorite Sushi Chef!!! "Aver quando the traigo otro werro para que lo enchilas!!!!!"
And last but not least
TO YOU, THE ONE THAT HOLDS THE KEY TO MY PANTIES:
"What would you ask of me
It's yours
To touch you with tenderness
to hear the child in you speak
all of the unspoken words
of clouds and sun behind your eyes
Ask me...
For this constant and unending
yearn for your touch
consumes me every waking hour!
Ask me i say...
And expect me to be here for you always
long past our togetherness!"
"the complexities, irrationalities, of the experience...
I am stimulated.
I can't wait until we meet again
we will forever kiss within a second of uninterrupted eternal bliss.
Pleading of skin softly textured
against my skin.
Murmured words, warmth of our bodies....
Unconscious divinity relieving devastated infinity
My empathetic exuberance brings me hopeful bliss.
Within bright light words they speak that you are so special to me"
And as she thought of him she could hear her little heart go *pitter-patter*
her jaw hurts from smiling... she somehow finds herself in this moment of *AWE*!
Yes i know this is a long one, but mind you I sound like an old lady whose been smokin' all her life and has a toad in her throat, so i aint doing much at work.
-Bye-
P.s.
Thanks everyone for your comments. I wish we build a little town and all be neighbors and live happily ever after.
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Hope that you feel better.
later!