balductum

So...here i am...am i here? I guess. talking to the ghosts of SG. Well, if anyone is listening....I'm doin good in school, but still dont have mayne friends in van yet....Those of old dont really care enough to call i guess, so here i sit listening to AIC and Soundgarden on my enclosed patio of a bedroom. Been writing some interesting music lately and i cant wait to record it....need some new mics though. A lot of new mics. Been wandering lots more though, finding it easier to smoke a joint and go get lost than to sit at home and do nothing. I'm starting to feel weird though. Like im caught in a void or somthing but i guess thats not a bad thing. More time to figure out who i am. I've always just covered my sub conscious in booze and hoped i'd never notice. BUT! Its way cooler to see that i'm not that dude that gets so hammered that he cant do anything but get more hammered. Its like i see everything differently now, and its new, and kind of exciting. Like being deaf and hearing music for the first time. Soothing, but totally nerve racking at the same time. I cant wait to find out who and what i am. Maybe this is growing up?
I'll always be a little kid at heart though i think.