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Ok, well, yesterday I spent a good amount of time in my tattooist's chair, working on my backpiece. Which is funny, because as I looked down at it, I'd realized that I've seriously spent about 60 hours getting ink driven into my skin, while in THAT chair. Haha, that's actual ink in skin time... case in point, I have a piece on my right forearm that I was in the chair for 8 hours for... but I only count it as four. So he was making it down and shading/lining the lower back and honestly, it fucking hurt. I have no idea how these girls get all the little sacrum tattoos and try to say it didn't. Stop lying! It's funny because he suggested using some kind of topical agent called... Bactine or something like that to numb it, while getting tattooed. However, not to sound like a tattoo snob or anything, but isn't that kind of like cheating? I'm rather curious to know how other people feel about this, I really am. My personal point of view, is that I'm getting a huge Nukibori (Japanese backpiece) of a manta ray to show my strength of will. My strength as an individual... to prove it to myself. So... with that in mind, wouldn't numbing it be defeating that purpose? I don't know, just something I was thinking about and this seemed like the proper place to bring it up.

What's rather unfortunate is that despite the major progress we made yesterday, I still have about ten hours left and he's booked up until July. So, I didn't make my goal of having it done before my birthday. Boooo...! He also wants it to heal rather thoroughly on account that I'm leaving the country next month for my Birthday, on the 29th of May and he wants me to come back and schedule when I get back from the trip.

Ah yes, the trip... I actually have this complex about aging and getting older, so it's probably no surprise why May 29th is most assuredly my least favorite day of the year. That and seriously... it's just never a good day in general. So, for the big 3-0 next month, I wanted to change that, so I'm going to a different continent to see someone... so that then, I can say that THIS year... my birthday was the best day. Especially with them. Admittedly, it may seem like a silly goal, but when you have one shitty birthday after the next, to the point that you just don't celebrate them anymore (Kind of like the seven years I didn't celebrate Christmas) it kind of falls into context. Not to sound like I'm trying to have a pity party and say "woe is me" because honestly, at least I'm trying to change it, yea? Honestly, the closer I get to my trip, the more excited I am about it. Haha, 29 days! Full disclosure though, I'm actually going to see this person and to be fair, with that the world can fall down around me for all I care. So, I scheduled the two events to coincide with each other.

Well, just a quick fill in...

P.S. My tattoo from the last blog has pretty much healed now and everything looks great... except some of the kanji is hard to read. The flowers look fantastic though.