I just found out I was the #1 girl on bangme.net for a brief period, lol. If you'll remember, that was what caused me to flip the fuck out earlier in the week, Ed's profile on said site. The one where he is "single" and posting dirty comments to other girls.
I just wrote him super-long email and I feel much better. It's not like I ever cared about his online liasons... if I did, I would have ever started dating him again. (Really really really long story). And it's not even so much that I care now. I mean, I come on here, I talk to people, I go on adultmatchdoctor and sometimes talk to girls that I meet on there. I'm on HotorNot and GLORYwrestling, I rate racks and nude photos, and never once do I ever think of leaving Ed for any of the girls (or guys) that I converse with. I trust that he's the same way. I'm just more open about it-- "oh look what so-and-so said, isn't that silly", "come check out this girl, isn't she hot", "so I was talking to this guy online yesterday who asked me if I wanted to bone"-- than he is. And normally I don't think that'd be such a big deal... except for the insane, raging hormones.
I mean, I think there's a slight difference between looking at an SG's page and posting "wow you're hot I really like your set" and her posting in reply "thanks, good luck with the baby", and leading some sort of alternate online life where no one knows your real situations. My opinion is, if you can't let people hiding behind a screen name know the basics of your life, what happens in real life? But I'm sure there's just as many arguments for the other side.
I wish I could explain it, but I really can't. But I've been holding on to this for far too long and I think I've finally made a step towards letting it go. Granted, it took forever and I missed valuable cleaning time as well as Law & Order, but I finally feel alright with the entire online situation. I hope he's not annoyed, cuz he's at his parents' house til Thursday afternoon instead of here. But anyway, yes, I feel much better.
I just wrote him super-long email and I feel much better. It's not like I ever cared about his online liasons... if I did, I would have ever started dating him again. (Really really really long story). And it's not even so much that I care now. I mean, I come on here, I talk to people, I go on adultmatchdoctor and sometimes talk to girls that I meet on there. I'm on HotorNot and GLORYwrestling, I rate racks and nude photos, and never once do I ever think of leaving Ed for any of the girls (or guys) that I converse with. I trust that he's the same way. I'm just more open about it-- "oh look what so-and-so said, isn't that silly", "come check out this girl, isn't she hot", "so I was talking to this guy online yesterday who asked me if I wanted to bone"-- than he is. And normally I don't think that'd be such a big deal... except for the insane, raging hormones.
I mean, I think there's a slight difference between looking at an SG's page and posting "wow you're hot I really like your set" and her posting in reply "thanks, good luck with the baby", and leading some sort of alternate online life where no one knows your real situations. My opinion is, if you can't let people hiding behind a screen name know the basics of your life, what happens in real life? But I'm sure there's just as many arguments for the other side.
I wish I could explain it, but I really can't. But I've been holding on to this for far too long and I think I've finally made a step towards letting it go. Granted, it took forever and I missed valuable cleaning time as well as Law & Order, but I finally feel alright with the entire online situation. I hope he's not annoyed, cuz he's at his parents' house til Thursday afternoon instead of here. But anyway, yes, I feel much better.
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toxicvixen:
i totally get what you are talking about here. dealing with the same thing. it's not even a really big deal to me. i trust my guy. it's just more annoying than anything. i'm just easily annoyed lately and am tending to blow things out of porportion. i think part of it has to do with the fact that we know what we are doing online and share it, and that they don't share anything until we come across it online. just try to not let it get to you so much... think about how awesome your life will be in a few weeks when your daughter is here!
nuria:
I hope you don't mind... but I added you to my friend list.