i'm still kind of bumming about
blocking me, i wish i knew what i did. Oh well, I'm not going to dwell on it.
I finally sold my soul and joined a networking site. I"m on facebook for now. If people want to add me if i know/talk to you on a regular basis i'll message you my details.
I'll do a proper update sometime
from my livejournal over the past few days
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all my life i have fely like i have this other side of me, a side that wants to be let out. all my life i have tried to control this beast i don't know how much longer i can do this. the anger is becoming too much, i'm constantly becoming worn down from holding it in, and holding it back. i don't know how i can go on. i really cannot seem t find a reason to do so.
i keep asking myself why i am even bothering. why do i pretend to be ok. i don't feel it is worth spit right now to be in controll, i just want to lash out and crush life, squeeze something sharp until it all reaks away.
i need to go away. some wehere far away and start over. where no one knows me and i them.
why do i keep holding myself back?
why am i even bothering to care
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SPOILERS! (Click to view)since i left school i've realized that my old vocal range has shrunk considerably. just now i realized how much...not only that i used to not get so winded hitting my low notes
http://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/commons/a/a6/Range_of_bass_voice_marked_on_keyboard.svg
there is an image of a keyboard with a typical bass range. if you look at it, i used to be able to hit the upper yellow notes and a little higher without going falsetto.
on the other hand if you go down the bass line, i used to be able to go an octave lower. now my range appears to be b to b
its amazing the things that sadden you
