Monday Jul 17, 2006

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So lately, everyone has been calling me to make sure that I am ok. When all I really want is to be left alone. There have been times when I want to just kill myself to make them stop. Today I had an epiphany.

I don't need to kill myself. I need to kill everyone else! Bye everybody.

Thursday Jun 01, 2006

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So I saw my friend shitake the other day. I am always surprised by how attractive I find her. She has a mix of soft spoken intelligence and intensity that I find intriguing. It seems her latest relationship didn't work out either (and for that she has my sympathy).

I half jokingly asked her if she wanted to go out. It was one of the...
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Wednesday May 31, 2006

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Well, it looks like my relationship is going through it's death throes. I'm having a hard time not blaming myself for it, and yet I can't figure out what I may have done differently that would have helped.

Yesterday while saying she still wanted to see me, Christy said she needed some time to herself and that she was going to look for a place...
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Wednesday May 17, 2006

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So today I am dealing with crap that I can't help feeling I shouldn't have to do. And I feel lousy for being annoyed.

Yesterday, when Christy went to leave for work the check engine light in her car came on and the car ran poorly enough down the driveway that she came back inside and I took her to work. No big deal (even...
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shitake:
hey! my poly-amorus man, saw you today for a minute at the caddy- hope you had fun with Jade...
about the above entry, I feel annoyed by people quite often. usually what happens with me is that I will feel guilty as well and so I try to be even nicer then get really annoyed to the point that I don't even want to be around them anymore. does that make sense? whatever Anyways, sometimes life can feel like such a test on my nerves!

Friday May 12, 2006

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So I wrote my friend and wonder of wonders got a response back within an hour. Seems while under employed she is well.

Why write you ask? Because she is on her third phone this year. She loses her phone more often than I lose my keys. Too bad she has the same habit with her purse.

Friday May 12, 2006

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I had a very intense and extended dream last night. Mostly involving a firend I haven't seen for the better part of a year. I wonder what my mind is trying to tell me.

Guess I should write her and see how she is. I just hate writing.

Tuesday May 09, 2006

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Well today's thought.......

I miss my nipple piercings!

I always miss them when I see someone with pierced nipples. and SG is full of some of the worlds finest pierced nipples.

Monday May 08, 2006

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Well, I have started to figure out how this journal works a little better, For instance I had no idea that somoene had made comments on my previous entries until I accidentally found them today.

In good news... I have not offended a friend by having her listed as one of my crushes......so I have put her back on the top of that list (after...
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shitake:
yay i'm back in the saddle again! I wonder why you thought I was offended...
still haven't had a chance to read that book yet though. after I do, does that give me license to have as many boyfriends as I want?
I had a freaky dream last night. I was going through this far eastern brothel- strange
badsquire:
You know as far as I am concerned you can have as many as you want. I just want to be one of them.

The book merely goes into one womans views on life, love, sex and relationships. What she shares under the guis eof her insights may be food for thought for you, or you may reject the ideas right away. I thought that you might find it interesting though. I hoped that it would help you work through what you seem to feel was a very conservative upbringing that may be in some way interfering with how you think you want to live your life.

Friday May 05, 2006

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Ok, So I was bored and Shitake wanted to see some pics of my girlfriend Christy...So there they are...even a few rare photos of me mixed in...I hate having my picture taken.
shitake:
your life partner is pretty. thanks for the book, I will be reading it soon! i also enjoyed the pics of you
badsquire:
Thanks, I think she rocks! Enjoy the book.

Friday May 05, 2006

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Sigh, so I put together my profile here because a freind kind of wanted me to, and I think I managed to offend her in the process. .....

In other news, ....nothing new really.

Actually, I am having a party this weekend (one of the perks of owning a club is that you can use it privately). I do wish that people were better about...
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shitake:
i hope it's not me you think that was offended! I was so flattered to be on your crush list... but that didn't last long! kiss
badsquire:
look again Sitake...you are back on it. I thought I might have overstepped.