bada

I really want to write you, but little has changed, except for the things that haven't. I am still looking to make me the man I hope to be. There is so much there when envisioning the modern man, so many attributes and models to look up to. Its time to educate, to read about them, to learn about them, write about them. Its a strange time to be a man, but a stranger time to be a person with concrete hopes, dreams and aspirations. It is time for me to love to go, do and make. Its time to create what is a great and honorable thing.

I'm having confidence issues lately. I'm pretty sure I'm a intelligent guy looking for the right conversation. I'm not always too witty, but I will stay quiet long enough to listen to you and get my point across.

i've slacked this week at work and now its time to go make up some time. I also went out every night this week and it finally caught up with me last night. I crashed and crashed hard. Slept from 9-9. I needed it. There was so much good music this week, how could I pass it up. The lack of sleep doesn't help my weight goals unfortunately. I hope what I'm working for is obtainable. it may take many more months, but it is a hard job to attempt dropping 60-70 lbs and getting to a place where I feel comfortable (i feel that way now) and confident (that is what i'm still searching for.). I've thought about going to see a counselor, and it still isn't a bad idea, but i don't think my issues are really anything that can be helped, just something to be earned. I think failing at something, repeatedly might possibly help. Time to give something 100% attention & effort and then fail. Uh, wish me luck.
have a great week everybody.