thank you to everyone who responded to my last blog it gave me some good in site and I appreciate it.
I'm not gonna lie, life has worn me out lately. my kids who are 4 and 8 are living with their dad in Oregon right now. they left on December 26th and I miss them like crazy. I talk to them on the phone and skype every now and then but they don't usually have much to say on the phone when I call so they usually aren't very long conversations.
I'm living with my boyfriend now and we are still working through some things.
He sees his ex all the time b/c they work together and they have a son together so he'll go over their house to visit a few times a week. but I get super jealous, and I've never been like that before with anyone.
I guess I kinda have the right to be, he cheated on her with me and he did confess to me even after he moved in that he was having sex with her. I know its hypocritical, but it hurt me so bad. he said that he isn't anymore b/c he doesn't want to lose me, but he just told me today that she asked him if they were going to have sex tonight. of course he told me he wouldn't but he is over there right now and of course I'm going crazy thinking about it.
I really really want to trust him but its kinda hard when we started this relationship cheating on our spouses and he already betrayed my trust once.
and he has also express fear that I may cheat on him or leave him.
I love him so much and I do believe him when he tells me he loves me, its just hard to trust... well, anyone anymore.
I actually trust him more then I trust his ex.
lately she has become pretty psycho about wanting him back, which is just pushing him away from her more. secretly I'm extremely happy about this
there have been other shenanigans going down in my life but this blog is long enough and most of you probably didn't even make it this far so I'll save the other stuff for a later date.
later
I'm not gonna lie, life has worn me out lately. my kids who are 4 and 8 are living with their dad in Oregon right now. they left on December 26th and I miss them like crazy. I talk to them on the phone and skype every now and then but they don't usually have much to say on the phone when I call so they usually aren't very long conversations.
I'm living with my boyfriend now and we are still working through some things.
He sees his ex all the time b/c they work together and they have a son together so he'll go over their house to visit a few times a week. but I get super jealous, and I've never been like that before with anyone.
I guess I kinda have the right to be, he cheated on her with me and he did confess to me even after he moved in that he was having sex with her. I know its hypocritical, but it hurt me so bad. he said that he isn't anymore b/c he doesn't want to lose me, but he just told me today that she asked him if they were going to have sex tonight. of course he told me he wouldn't but he is over there right now and of course I'm going crazy thinking about it.
I really really want to trust him but its kinda hard when we started this relationship cheating on our spouses and he already betrayed my trust once.
and he has also express fear that I may cheat on him or leave him.
I love him so much and I do believe him when he tells me he loves me, its just hard to trust... well, anyone anymore.
I actually trust him more then I trust his ex.
lately she has become pretty psycho about wanting him back, which is just pushing him away from her more. secretly I'm extremely happy about this
there have been other shenanigans going down in my life but this blog is long enough and most of you probably didn't even make it this far so I'll save the other stuff for a later date.
later
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saillesong:
dam. that's kind of a complicated situation you have going on there. i hope things get better for you. ....if not you should just run away with me and become a lesbian. 
ironduke50:
Dang...