i went and rented a violin today. I played for 10 years. I adored it at first but hit a major block at 15 and ended the love affair. i haven't touched a violin since I was 16. I was really nervous. When the man unzipped the case and i saw it my heart started pumping and when I picked it up and held it a shock went through me. I was too self-conscious to play it in the strore. But it feels really good to hold and touch and coax and finger and play. Sadly I can't just pick up where I left off. It's going to take some time...
I keep listening to Coldplay and feeling wistfull. I actually wrote in my journal journal, you know the kind with paper and you use a pen. I hardly ever write in it anymore, only when I'm feeling particularly morose, or when I have a feeling that I want to remember. I feel nostolgic for everything right now. Even things that are in my present. It's like there's a layer of fog between me everything I'm seeing and feeling and I can't quite get there. i can't seem to sit still for long. I need to keep busy, busy-body futsy.
WAKE UP!
I keep listening to Coldplay and feeling wistfull. I actually wrote in my journal journal, you know the kind with paper and you use a pen. I hardly ever write in it anymore, only when I'm feeling particularly morose, or when I have a feeling that I want to remember. I feel nostolgic for everything right now. Even things that are in my present. It's like there's a layer of fog between me everything I'm seeing and feeling and I can't quite get there. i can't seem to sit still for long. I need to keep busy, busy-body futsy.
WAKE UP!
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mobprod:
If I had seen it alone, or if I weren't so manly, I'd have cried. It was sooooo good.
likeclockwork:
you're a funny lady, lady. i played violin too, but it became so humiliating for me to carry the thing between classes that i had to quit. plus, joe anguilo (i asssume he was your orchestra guy also) was a pretty intense man, man.
