baby_donut

People ask me why I'm baby_donut and I give the simple answer that it was my pet name but actually it's kinda lame cause I made up my own pet name which is from a cold cold cold hearts song that reminds me of myself I guess. cold cold hearts

ps. just finished
and reccommend this interview with Emma Forrest.



also and old poem I wrote about dancing...kinda weird I guess:

fifteen more minutes
I will make you a slave
to my flesh
slip down to just a pair
of glittering thong underwear
beg me to tell you things
your girlfriend, you wife won't
I press my flesh into you like
melting lava
uh oh
my slippery insides are exposed
just one more drink
just one more smoke
and I am ready
ready to play your violin
it's a sin
but you can't help but charge right in
the world divides when I leave the club
somehow I slide right back in to being a person
the telephone rings
I don't answer
I'll be your alibi for a dollar
oh no
my ribs show
and I throw up
to keep up
with the girls who are eighteen
with mean grins
who weigh 106
and eat french fries with chop sticks
oh what a beautiful world
sometimes in just the right light
I make a half assed Audrey Hepburn
I just want some more beer
a shot to the head
a warm bed
I can't keep up
the money flies through my fingers
like fireflies
lap dance booth
uncooth
champange room
feel the half moon
rise outside
while I am in here
panting in your ear
my heels click like Dorothey
and you are far too wicked
you'll fit in
sliced my finger with a pin
I'll chop your dick off for a dollar
girls fight under the florescent lights
of the dressing room
it's absurd
I'm part of the hurd
She takes a handful of laxatives
the bathroom smells like a turd
one girl down
one to go
the bathroom is free, junkie
blow another line
it's divine
if you dance fast they won't see
your track marks
so what
their between your toes
no one knows
and I am far too drunk
to be pontificating
you're a whore
you're a bore
she does extras
sucks thick fat dick
between the curtains
it's all a trick
I'll pull a fucking rabbit out of my ass
for a laugh
but this place is falling down
to the ground
and we're stuck inside
I can see your ribs
this place is scary
this one guy raped me
I am lazy
I am your daughter
I am your baby
or maybe
we're all just rivals
I think it's trivial
I'll pack some heat
you beat your meat
it's fresh
it's free
I'm down on my knees
I need repentance
I lost my necklace
I need a sugar daddy
I need a hobby
maybe I'll take up archery
or play the part of aristocrocy
maybe I'll just fall asleep.


pss. There was a snake in my garden today and I'm not being dirty. It appeared outside and scared the crap out of me but my dad picked it up and let me look at it. It was really cool.