baby_donut

he makes me forget
dumb boys who hurt me badly
I feel much better

I want to kiss him
for making me whole again
used to be broken

do not want to lose
the spark that makes me write now
brings me to dark places

do not feel tired
stronger cigarettes will help
so will strong coffee

need you inside me
to help me feel something good
something very pure

Russia makes camels
only they are very light
like smoking some air

numb seems terrible
I think I'd rather be weird
or even silly

not death anyway
instead the death of something
and the birth also

I like beer a lot
now I understand crazy
want to feel you bad

I need you around
alcohol tears sparkle in eyes
make me electric

I want to cry now
I know I deserve to cry
want you here with me


ps. don't worry. I'm not that sad. Writing is very cathartic for me and also today was progress:

half push pop
1 vegetarian vitamin
2 sour patch kids
4 pieces of gum
2 cups of coffee (one cream no sugar/ one 2 % milk)
piece of icecream cone
one cracker
2 pieces of cheese
2 beers (miller light/corona w/ lime)
bowl of uncooked stringbeans
bowl of broccoli (about 6 small pieces)
1 pack of cigarettes
1 gallon of water


mosquito bites: around 15
dog hair on me: tons


August 15, 2005 3:44 am



pps. Someone once told me you could get clymedia from wearing thong underwear. So much sexual miseducation goes around that it scares me. Do any of you have similiar weird stories that you were told about sex so I can add them to my strange list that I am compliling?

xo