Im going to start with how unbelievably heartbroken I feel at 9am this Good Friday morning.
I know its been ages since Ive posted anything but keeping with tradition im going to tell you lovely people tales of my misfortunate dealings in this life of mine.
So I havent been drinking in months bc it is against my diet. ( not trying to lose weight just boosting my immune system)
Ive had a pretty emotional week ... being the genius that I am I decided to get right sloppy last night truly have a Holy Thursday.
I am rediculously infatuated with this guy whom Ive hooked up with causally over the past 7-8 months. So last night Im beyond tipsy and his friends are gathering to leave the bar. I grab hold of him " take me with you" and begin to kiss his face until he kisses me back ... I only recall bits of his reply something to the effect of " I dont know what I want / not tonight / ill call you..." Im not letting go of him to the point of force and he tells me not to do this and i let go and he comes back to me a moment later to remind me we will talk sometime.
Wounded
I do not take rejection welll at all </3
Ive never done this before where I force myself at someone Im always the one who is reserved ( in public ) ( complete heart on sleve in reality ) Im not that messy drunk girl. this was such a weak moment and to have failed miserably in my attempts is such a low blow to my ego Ive been crying ever since i opened my eyes and the events from last night came rushing back to me.
Fail
I know its been ages since Ive posted anything but keeping with tradition im going to tell you lovely people tales of my misfortunate dealings in this life of mine.
So I havent been drinking in months bc it is against my diet. ( not trying to lose weight just boosting my immune system)
Ive had a pretty emotional week ... being the genius that I am I decided to get right sloppy last night truly have a Holy Thursday.
I am rediculously infatuated with this guy whom Ive hooked up with causally over the past 7-8 months. So last night Im beyond tipsy and his friends are gathering to leave the bar. I grab hold of him " take me with you" and begin to kiss his face until he kisses me back ... I only recall bits of his reply something to the effect of " I dont know what I want / not tonight / ill call you..." Im not letting go of him to the point of force and he tells me not to do this and i let go and he comes back to me a moment later to remind me we will talk sometime.
Wounded
I do not take rejection welll at all </3
Ive never done this before where I force myself at someone Im always the one who is reserved ( in public ) ( complete heart on sleve in reality ) Im not that messy drunk girl. this was such a weak moment and to have failed miserably in my attempts is such a low blow to my ego Ive been crying ever since i opened my eyes and the events from last night came rushing back to me.
Fail
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jayded1:
I know this sucks to hear but I don't think its meant to be. Don't waste your time chasing someone who doesnt deserve it. I wish I was smart enough to take this advice sometimes myself. Hopefully you are wiser then me 
Good luck.
Good luck.
radiofrank:
This is a very pleasant surprise! Hope that you're well.