It’s time for a new blog!@lyxzen @rambo and @missy
But warning! This is one is not happy at all =(
Some time ago this blog would have been different, but nowadays my life has changed a lot. I’m living my worst moment alone because, apparently, I’m not good enough for my friends, they don’t have time…I can’t understand! I try but I can’t. 24 hours a day and no time? It’s ridiculous to me.
Some years ago I suffered sexual abuse. My worst nightmare. I couldn’t talk to my mom and my sister because my dad had passed away recently and they were destroyed. 2 friends from secondary school helped me. The thing is: they are not my closest friends but they were the only ones who noticed my pain. Not my best friends but them.
This Summer (Winter if you live in the North) I was travelling back home from work when I saw, in the bus, the son of a bitch who raped me. And he said “hi”. I collapsed. All my worst feelings taking control of me again. I decided to travel (“holidays”) to try to find some peace for my mind. It didn’t work because life hates me. During my days in Ushuaia I stayed in a friend of a friend home who offered me to show me the city, take me to the airport, etc. One night he was drunk and tried to take advantage of me. But this time I could hit him and escape.
Terrible.
The last 4 months I’ve tried to see my friends, talked to them and nothing. They don’t have time. I understand that working and studying is important but if someone you love is telling you “I don’t feel ok, I’m very depressed, I’m taking pills, I can’t continue fighting alone” …how can you ignored that person? Well, they keep ignoring me.
That’s why, today, I feel nobody likes me. I lost my friends when I needed them the most.
SORRY FOR THIS SAD STORY BUT I NEEDED TO TALK TO SOMEONE AND YOU HAVE ALWAYS BEEN HERE FOR ME. THANKS ♥
Babel.
Anyway, I will keep smiling, I promise!
