I have been absent from this site for a while, I have had a lot of shit to deal with and just needed time to centre myself again. I'm back now anyway, I broke up with the guy I was so in love with, I still have feelings for him but he has way too much baggage and he took out his stress on me and I won't stand for that. I have decided to resolve all my issues with my previous boyfriend, I am going to call him just now, I need to get some closure. It's nerve wrecking as I haven't spoken to him since the day we broke up two years ago. It has to be done though if I want to be able to have a future with any man. The transfer of my house should be going through in two weeks and then the renovation begins which is at least something I have to take my mind off all the other drama in my life. I feel so grown up right now which I suppose is a good thing but it feels yuck at the moment. Anyway going on a date tonight with a french guy I met on Saturday, communication is going to be a problem but he's wining and dining me which is what I need right now. 
aaaah sorry to hear about the boy unfortunatly these things happen and it just was not ment to be
and by the sounds of it he wasnt the person you thought he was
have fun tonight hope he gets you a wonderfull meal