OK so the ex (Anton) sms'd me last night, he wants to see me apparently. We are hooking up tonight. I wonder what he wants......Men!!! 
This is becoming very tiring, I just need some real resolution and less confusion. He seems to be taking on his new role as a father very seriously which is good, he seems happy. I am happy for him and...
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This is becoming very tiring, I just need some real resolution and less confusion. He seems to be taking on his new role as a father very seriously which is good, he seems happy. I am happy for him and...
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My weekend was insane! I watched DVD'S at home with my friend Cindy on Friday evening. Million Dollar Baby was excellent for the first time in ages I watched a movie that made me sob like a baby, I needed that release. Clint Eastwoods charactor reminded me of my Dad. My Dad passed away three years ago so any depiction of a paternal relationship really...
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xerxes:
*insert good advice here* Million dollar baby is excellent, I also cried my pretty eyes out.
Hi all
Went to Amasa (advertising and media industry event) last night and proceeded to get snot drunk on red wine. I then surrendered to that damn drink and dial bullshit and sms'd Anton or as I like to refer to him these days ASSFACE!!! It was a very tongue in cheek sms and he played along. Our interaction via sms became almost metaphoric regarding...
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Went to Amasa (advertising and media industry event) last night and proceeded to get snot drunk on red wine. I then surrendered to that damn drink and dial bullshit and sms'd Anton or as I like to refer to him these days ASSFACE!!! It was a very tongue in cheek sms and he played along. Our interaction via sms became almost metaphoric regarding...
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dreamfoundry:
(I'm with Sean here! Go for the kitchen.)
I've seen Birth before, I thought it was quite good. Not mind-blowing, but I'm difficult to please on a good day. I'm a bit of a sucker for Nicole Kidman though...
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When I'm in one of those "cunfused about an ex" sort of headspaces I usually find that doing something out of character works wonders. Going somewhere I usually don't go to, seeing some long lost friend or anything to totally change my environment and sort of reset my perspective on my life...
You know that old cliche... A change is as good as a holiday... yeah, it works sometimes, but that change has to be a good one... not just any old change.
Well, I'm off... I can't believe I'm trying to give relationship advice... I'll get outta here before I put my foot in it.
I've seen Birth before, I thought it was quite good. Not mind-blowing, but I'm difficult to please on a good day. I'm a bit of a sucker for Nicole Kidman though...
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When I'm in one of those "cunfused about an ex" sort of headspaces I usually find that doing something out of character works wonders. Going somewhere I usually don't go to, seeing some long lost friend or anything to totally change my environment and sort of reset my perspective on my life...
You know that old cliche... A change is as good as a holiday... yeah, it works sometimes, but that change has to be a good one... not just any old change.
Well, I'm off... I can't believe I'm trying to give relationship advice... I'll get outta here before I put my foot in it.
azzura:
I think you are both right, Kitchen it is!! With regards to Birth the reason why I found it soooo disturbing is that I find woman like Nicole Kidmans charactor revolting. I myself have wallowed in my own post break up/ loss misery so I have been that woman but I have most definately changed since and I shudder at the thought that I was ever like that. EEUUW!! 
Hey.... boy am I confused....
Anton hinted at pursuing something with me again, he and I had a good, long, honest and mature chat last night. He is waiting for the paternity test results to return, he should get them any minute. There are a lot of things pending on the outcome though and I am not sure what his true feelings are for Marisa...
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Anton hinted at pursuing something with me again, he and I had a good, long, honest and mature chat last night. He is waiting for the paternity test results to return, he should get them any minute. There are a lot of things pending on the outcome though and I am not sure what his true feelings are for Marisa...
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saffa:
well i was only planing on coming over in febuary/march cause then ill know whats happening with the visa poo 
ooooh no the situation sounds like its getting worse
but i think you making the right decision to keep the distance
but dont wait for him whats ment to be is ment to be
ooooh no the situation sounds like its getting worse
but i think you making the right decision to keep the distance
but dont wait for him whats ment to be is ment to be
visara:
Wow! You're going through a tough time. Hugs and kisses for you.
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Tell me more about you:
1. What's your sexual orientation? Straight / Bi / Gay
2. Do you drink alcohol?
3. If yes, what's your favourite drink?
4. What's your favourite after-hours activity or hobby?
5. What job did you want to do as a child?
6. Do you have pets?
7. If yes, what?
8. Do you prefer savoury or sweet?
If you check out my blog you will find my own answers to these questions there soon ...
Hey all
Well my life is back to it's usual chaos. I had a blow out with that French guy at the Palms on Saturday evening. He wanted to know what happened so I told him that I was in love with someone else. So he asked me why I did not tell him I was seeing someone. I tried to explain to him that...
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Well my life is back to it's usual chaos. I had a blow out with that French guy at the Palms on Saturday evening. He wanted to know what happened so I told him that I was in love with someone else. So he asked me why I did not tell him I was seeing someone. I tried to explain to him that...
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dreamfoundry:
You, a shoot... Awesome! You're real good looking (as far as I can see from the few smoky photos you have up on the site) so it's going to look great I bet.
My best advice, stay away from guys. We're arseholes. Even the nice ones.
Well, have a great day.
My best advice, stay away from guys. We're arseholes. Even the nice ones.
Well, have a great day.
saffa:
boys i tell ya 
hope your mate is ok
*hugs*
hope your mate is ok
*hugs*
OK the emotional rollercoaster continues. Last night I stayed at home and read a few back issues of Readers Digest. I read an article about a mother describiing the pangs of letting go and allowing her children to grow up and make mistakes. She constantly refers to one of the imaginary creatures from the book Dr. Doolittle, it's called a pushme pullme or something (...
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dreamfoundry:
Wow, lady. Sounds like you're having major guy troubles. We're a bunch of arseholes really.
I see you go to the teknotribe parties. I used to, but so long ago I can hardly remember a thing, about 4 and 5 years ago. I often danced to Nick Grater's music at places like GASS, before it got closed down.
I mostly grew out of dance music. I guess I spent so much time in the "rave" scene in the late 90's, and then too much time, way too much time partying with the psitrance guys like Lunartech and Mushroom Mafia in the early 2000's that I eventually got bored.
The only dance parties I still go to are either private affairs (which we don't have so many of anymore) or when my friends throw parties. (Most notably the SECRET parties that my friend Aragorn used to have at the Horror Cafe.)
Well, good day to you.
I see you go to the teknotribe parties. I used to, but so long ago I can hardly remember a thing, about 4 and 5 years ago. I often danced to Nick Grater's music at places like GASS, before it got closed down.
I mostly grew out of dance music. I guess I spent so much time in the "rave" scene in the late 90's, and then too much time, way too much time partying with the psitrance guys like Lunartech and Mushroom Mafia in the early 2000's that I eventually got bored.
The only dance parties I still go to are either private affairs (which we don't have so many of anymore) or when my friends throw parties. (Most notably the SECRET parties that my friend Aragorn used to have at the Horror Cafe.)
Well, good day to you.
saffa:
*hugs*
hope you have a good weekend hun
hope you have a good weekend hun
Well I am in much better spirits today and I don't mean the alcoholic kind. I spoke to Justin on the phone for about two hours last night. It was really weird, he hasn't grown up or changed at all. It is like he just carried on our crazy relationship with this poor young girl and she honestly did not know what she signed up...
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saffa:
sounds like its a good thing you got out when you did
and why do woman always go for the guy that treats them like shit
and why do woman always go for the guy that treats them like shit
angrboda:
Neither of them deserve you, G.
You are too precious to settle for anything less than a man who will cherish you, protect you, & respect you for the incredible woman that you are, & quietly fill your heart with a deep-seated sense of peace & joy.
Below are the lyrics to one of my favourite Nick Cave songs. I consider myself incredibly blessed to have found a man who can offer me this kind of understanding & devotion. I hope that someday you, too, will uncover such a gem...
Come sail your ships around me
And burn your bridges down
We make a little history, baby
Every time you come around
Come loose your dogs upon me
And let your hair hang down
You are a little mystery to me
Every time you come around
We talk about it all night long
We define our moral ground
But when I crawl into your arms
Everything comes tumbling down
Come sail your ships around me
And burn your bridges down
We make a little history, baby
Every time you come around
Your face has fallen sad now
For you know the time is nigh
When I must remove your wings
And you, you must try to fly
Come sail your ships around me
And burn your bridges down
We make a little history, baby
Every time you come around
Come loose your dogs upon me
And let your hair hang down
You are a little mystery to me
Every time you come around
You are too precious to settle for anything less than a man who will cherish you, protect you, & respect you for the incredible woman that you are, & quietly fill your heart with a deep-seated sense of peace & joy.
Below are the lyrics to one of my favourite Nick Cave songs. I consider myself incredibly blessed to have found a man who can offer me this kind of understanding & devotion. I hope that someday you, too, will uncover such a gem...
Come sail your ships around me
And burn your bridges down
We make a little history, baby
Every time you come around
Come loose your dogs upon me
And let your hair hang down
You are a little mystery to me
Every time you come around
We talk about it all night long
We define our moral ground
But when I crawl into your arms
Everything comes tumbling down
Come sail your ships around me
And burn your bridges down
We make a little history, baby
Every time you come around
Your face has fallen sad now
For you know the time is nigh
When I must remove your wings
And you, you must try to fly
Come sail your ships around me
And burn your bridges down
We make a little history, baby
Every time you come around
Come loose your dogs upon me
And let your hair hang down
You are a little mystery to me
Every time you come around
I made an appointment to see a therapist tomorrow, I need to deal with my obsessive thoughts that constantly pervade my existence and make it hard for me to focus on my other priorities like work. I called Anton he was very nice and we are meeting on Thursday to chat about what happened as honestly as possible. I also finally called Justin and spoke...
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angrboda:
Shame, hun. You seem to be stuck betwen a rock & a hard place right now. I am just really glad that you have made the decision to go & see a professional about this. There is only so much relationship advice we, as friends, can give. A proper therapist is more equipped to guide you through this problem in an emotionally detatched & completely unbiased way. I wish for you the best of luck, & I hope it all works itself out soon. You need that sense of closure to be able to move on with your life. Stay strong, sweetie, & remember I'm always here for you to talk to
PS. We're going out to dinner with Julian (Lee's new partner) & his preggie wife on Friday night, so unfortunately I won't be able to join you guys on your crazy girls' night out after the Pendoring awards. Maybe next time
PS. We're going out to dinner with Julian (Lee's new partner) & his preggie wife on Friday night, so unfortunately I won't be able to join you guys on your crazy girls' night out after the Pendoring awards. Maybe next time
saffa:
ok as you know i know nothing bout relationships but the best thing ot do is
sort out the 'thing' between the ex and make peace
i realy hope it all gets worked out as it will bug the poo out of you
for ever
pleasure
if you need another one let me know
sort out the 'thing' between the ex and make peace
i realy hope it all gets worked out as it will bug the poo out of you
for ever
pleasure
if you need another one let me know
Today has been really crappy, I got a fine this morning of R300 because I drove over the yellow line to get on to Grayston on ramp and a stupid copper stopped me. I also realised that I need to sit down and chat to Anton and complete things with him properly otherwise I am going to get stuck like I did with Justin. It...
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saffa:
aaaah hun i hope you get threw this ok
have a chat to the therapist and hopefully he can help
aaaah hun i hope you get threw this ok
have a chat to the therapist and hopefully he can help
xerxes:
I'll be thinking of you and holding thumbs...
All hell broke loose at Teknotribe, I am not sure what happened as I was not there but apparently Anton's ex Marisa said to my very crazy friend Hester that if she is my friend then she is also a low life whore. Hester punched Marisa and everything went pair shaped. I am not sure what happened because Hester was very drunk when I eventually...
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saffa:
ooooh shit sounds like the situation is starting to get out of hand
hope you ok though
hope you ok though
angrboda:
Given any thought to the idea of a wild 'n crazy girls nite out I SMSd you about last night?!
So my friend went to go fetch my stuff from Anton's place apparently he looks like he is really in emotional upheaval about the prospect of possibly being a dad and his other ex is forcing him to read all these books on parenting when the results of the paternity tests have not even come back yet. She is cooked!!! He has dated some crazy...
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saffa:
mmm sounds like there is a bit of a situation going on there with the ex
maby you should keep a distance between you two
it may be hard as you say but if its the thing that makes it all good in the end then so be it
mmm frenchie sounds a bit dodgy
maby you should keep a distance between you two
it may be hard as you say but if its the thing that makes it all good in the end then so be it
mmm frenchie sounds a bit dodgy
Went out to a very lovely and not to mention expensive French Restaurant last night, it's called Auberge Michel. Dinner was lovely I had Frois gras as a starter and then Kingklip with Chourico and a truffle sauce, it was devine. What I like about the way that the French eat is that the portions are smaller so you are able to appreciate completely different...
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xerxes:
i'm happy to hear that you had a good time 
Hope you feel better soon!
Hope you feel better soon!
saffa:
thanks hun and remeber the same goes for you
glad you had a good time last night hope tomorrow goes well
its good to go out amd get your mind off the situation
thanks hun and remeber the same goes for you
glad you had a good time last night hope tomorrow goes well
its good to go out amd get your mind off the situation
im looking at getting a pug 306 1.4 they nice little cars
you know if you keep on seeing anton every time he calls you not going to get over the delema and you are just going to get hurt more and more.
i hope you get your resolution tonight and things get sorted out