So I went MIA again, I thought I said I wasn’t going to do that? You know, when things get hard and you just can’t find anything good to say about your life because just when you feel it starting to look up, you get slammed with something else. Some things you feel you’re not going to make through… And you start thinking about the saying “What doesn’t kill you, makes you stronger”? Well, I’d like to tell the thing that is trying to kill me, that I’m strong enough, you can stop now. Please? Heh.
Over the last month or so, I have had undeniable up’s and down’s… I have been to Las Vegas and rock climbing competitions and taken multiple road trips just for the hell of it. I’ve kept great company...
and even grabbed a new tattoo.
But, I’ve also dealt with unbelievable lows. I’ve had my house catch on fire, everyone including my pets were fine thankfully... (Is it wrong, I just laughed and thought "Taco Bell... Not even once.." gotta have a sense of humor in these situations or you'll lose your mind.)
I’ve been dealing with tight financial situations, new roommates, insurance agents, cleaning crews, constant in and out in what typically is a peaceful environment for me. The hurry up and wait game to repair my home. And as hard as it is to say out loud, My nearly 6 year relationship has ultimately come to an end. Nobody likes to admit that it came to an end. Nobody likes to sit back and wonder if it was the right thing to do. As private as I am with my personal life, I would share that I felt it was the right thing. People grow apart or events happen that pull them away from one another and it hurts but it would hurt more to pretend and hope one day it would become reality. I couldn’t and wouldn’t do that. Some people say you should try harder. But you have to ask yourself, at one point have you given it as much as you could? At one point do you say, enough is enough. I’m not happy and who I am isn’t what makes you happy. And for that I will always be sorry but I will never be sorry for being true to myself and ultimately true to them for being honest.
In September, I was given the opportunity to go to Las Vegas (I had never been.) and I hadn’t been on a plane since I was very young and it was a bit nerve racking, I’ll admit that. Yeah, miss car nut was terrified of flying haha. So, I guess I got super special treatment because the pilot saw how nervous I was and invited me into the cockpit to talk with him and see all the controls and explain everything, it was pretty fucking bad ass.
I landed in Vegas and met up with my very good friend Tom and he spoiled the HELL out of me. Mind you, I am not a very “fancy” person (surprised? I didn’t think so). I’m the kind of gal who would rather go to dive bars, shoot some pool, play at the arcades and a strip club is always a plus in my book. So, it was a bit of a shock to have caviar and vodka shooters and fancy drinks at fancy restaurants. A massive amazing suite at the MGM Grand, and just all around amazing time.
So I thought I would return the favor. See, Tom had been to Vegas many times, but never went to Vegas with someone like me. I had wanted to go on this rollercoaster since I laid my eyes on it. If you’ve been to Vegas, you know which one ;). I also schooled him at air hockey <--- Yes, that just needs to be said. We went on every touristy thing we could think of and walked the strip, lost a bunch of money gambling and instead of fancy clothes or souvenirs… Being me, all I truly wanted was a 1.5lb box of nerds with matching nerd socks... and good company.
And I got that. I got an experience I will never forget.
I am all about living in the moment and grabbing a life changing opportunity, no matter how significant or insignificant it may seem at the time. Whether it be a walk down the waterfront with a friend, a random drive to get a Slurpee, or an entire week long trip to Vegas… It could change your life. It could be a pivotal moment in what defines you or a memory you lean on in hard times. Or a new memory to replace the bad ones… Or maybe just a couple of awesome inside jokes that put a smile on your face when you’re having a shitty day… “ToOoOoooommmm… I just want you to know…” (inside joke right thurrr haha).
So there’s all that, also, just a hint to everyone wondering… A new set was indeed shot and is in the final editing stages so cross your fingers and I’ll be updating ya’ll on the good news if it is accepted. In the meantime, here are some random, some hilarious photo’s over the last month-ish to somewhat make up for my absence…
