azrael_abyss

there are SO MANY things running through my head right now...

- I'm ashamed of being an American because of how our government is acting with the victims of Katrina.
- I'm disappointed with the results of The Contender (yes, i just got the final episode)
- I really want to be back in Florida
- I miss my friends

first off... the reason for the first thought is because there were so many things that could have been done ahead of time to help the victims of Katrina. New Orleans has been completely demolished by this hurricane and I feel for those people so much. I wish that I could pack my bags right now and go to NOLA and help them out. The fact that the government took a week to help the people of New Orleans makes me sick. There should have been help waiting. They knew what was going to happen if a catagory 5 hurricane hit them. There should have been shuttles there waiting to take people to safety. The fact that there are thousands expected to be dead from this tragidy hurts my heart. I'm so hurt by the fact that no one could reach out a hand until the government oked it hurts me. NOLA is only 7 hours from my door step of where i use to live and if i was still there i would have packed up and helped. I know i'm not a doctor, but i could have helped pass out food and water. that's where the Red Cross comes in. Please if you haven't done so PLEASE donate to the Red Cross to help the people that have lost so much to this hurricane. Being from Florida I understand hurricanes well, and when you are a victim of a hurricane you need all the help you can get.

Second thought: I'm so pissed with the outcome of the show Contender (a boxing show for those who haven't seen the show). I really wanted Peter Manfrado to win. He was the better boxer, even though when it came down to it neither deserved the title because the fight was such a disappointment. I've realized that I'm a fan of boxing because of this show. I really like it. Hell, i might take up boxing. Seriously. The people who box are so conditioned. It's overly impressive.

Third thought: After losing _Wahine_ as a friend on here (due to her letting her membership laps) I realize how much i miss my friends in Jacksonville, FL. I miss going out and hanging out with all of my friends. I grew up in FL in the same house all of my life until the age of 20. I still have the same friends i've had since kindergarden. I think after my friend Klif died (a few months back) i've realized how much my friends mean to me. I love my friends and i feel that I'm missing so much by not being with them. I'm missing my friend Amber's birth of her first child with my friend Tim. I missed my friend Christy's club opening night. I just miss so much by not being near the people who mean so much to me. I feel at times that I'm lost between being here in Germany and being in FL where I've got roots.

fourth thought has been covered. I miss my friends so dearly as well as i miss my family. Being over seas has made me realize how much you (my friends) make me who i am. I miss you dearly and love you.


that is all for now. Sorry for babbling. I hope it all makes sense.