azrael06

now with a site with the word suicide in the title there is not a lot of talk on said subject. well that is about to change, because well frankly it's a consideration of mine. I am depressed, i have been clinically depressed since i was about 15, so thats about 8 years, which roughly translates into one quarter of my life. Considering you barely remember the first part of your life, it would be easy to say that i have not know much else but depression. I have all the pills and shrinks, but am not able to shake this disease.

It seems now that my depression is pushing away my friends, and my family like to distance themselves because you know "the crazy in the family". I see this as further fuel to my already growing ailment.

So now i am at the point where it seems that well there does not seem like any good reason to continue. I have trouble making new friends, and the friends i did have i knew before i got sick, and now most of them are just tired, and angry and i suppose not friends at all.

In such a big world with so many people, how is it so easy to find yourself so alone?