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i have got to stop planning things. my life is moving entirely too quickly, and there doesn't seem to be anything i can do about it.

it doesn't help that certain things keep popping up unannounced, but then again, that can't be helped either.

-s h

to take away the waiting .

-s h

i have got to stop thinking about this. it's driving me insane. i can't barely function without it being on my mind.

it's not about me. it's not about me.

-s h

i'm a retard. just so i know.

-s h

inventory's done. i'm tired, i'm a little intoxicated and i can barely type.

who wants a fuck?

-s h

i've been out driving a huge dodge ram pickup with a hemi engine in it all day. i had to rent a car to get to work extra early for inventory tomorrow, and it was all they had. so, me and my best friends were just out cruising around downtown in that big fucking tanker.

we went down to backspace so i could show off...
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i hate wondering. i want love, i want to love, but what is that? the times i've had it i didn't want it. too demanding, unfulfilling, etcetera. i want someone i can just be with. but that's too much to ask.

-s h

ah, pyramid apricot ale... how you spoil me.

-s h

it's the beer and hot dogs update. first off, a recap of the weekend.

i saw two new movies this weekend. the first was charlie and the chocolate factory, which was amazing as expected. tim burton's visuals and twisted humor coupled with johnny depp's beautiful face and in-character acting [rare these days that actors don't just play themselves in every movie] made this one...
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the following is a clip of someone's response to me voicing my frustrations with how they've been treating me...

"You're the only person who thinks that way. No one else seems to have a problem with me and I don't speak to them any differently than I do to you."

so... my thoughts/feelings are invalid because they're not popular? regardless of the fact that it's...
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