aymie

ahh this is a pretty hard subject for me to talk about..but i feel the need to get things off my chest.... i feel like SG is a place where you can put your deepest feelings... i dunno its kind of a safe haven if you know what i mean?
ah im getting choked up already! =S whats wrong with me!

ohh well last friday i had the horrible news that my ex boyfriend had died.... you insantly think, car crash? got knocked over? i dunno what was going through my head.... but no.. he got killed... someone killed him!
i was and still am completely devastated. and to find out his new girlfriend had did it! the person that said they loved him, the person he trusted.
i feel utterly disgusted.
we were only together for about 7-8 months but it was a very heated relationship. we were together allll the time. we had our bad times! any of my friends will vouch for that.. but he did not deserve this! i was devastated when we finished in feb.. but i knew i had to get over it coz it was for the best...we just didnt work together.. but we were still friends.. and we planned to stay that way.. i hadnt talked to him in a while, i didnt want to get in the way of his relationship... i had that with his ex and its not nice and wouldnt have wanted to do that.

i just think if only i had talked to him recently.. i dunno i knw there was nothing i could have done.. but it would have been nice to have spoken to him. you think you dnt need to talk to someone.. you think you have all the time in the world to chat and be friends... but you dont!

it still gets to me and i still cry when im along.. i just hope the bitch gets what she deserves,

i cant even imagine what his family is going through.

sorry if i have completely bummed everyone out.. this is the first time i have been able to get across how i feel.. if you read this thanks for listning.